concept: caleb having a surface level crush on jester based on his own projections of what he thinks is right for him, idealizing her and what she could have meant for him before his life turned out the way it is and because he never got closure with astrid, who he loved
concept: caleb no longer understanding what love means for him as he is now and struggling to see jester for what she truly is and himself for what he truly is, coming to the realization that the kind of love he needs and gives are not the same as they were when he was 16