Um, I& #39;m going to say "No." I worry about being a good teacher every single day, even on my week off. The fact that I worry does not make me a good teacher. None of you have ever seen my classrooms. You don& #39;t know the harmful things that slip out of my mouth when I& #39;m not thinking.

You don& #39;t know the privilege, the whiteness, the racism, the gender constructs I encourage. You don& #39;t know how much I suck every day. "But Rose, the fact that you know that means you& #39;re on the right path!" Bull. I can know I& #39;m doing wrong and still do it.

"Do better until you know better." Yeah well I think I know better but I don& #39;t do better. Is that because I& #39;m apathetic? Scared? Ignorant? I don& #39;t actually know better? All of the above?

I worry every day about the dozens of students I know I& #39;m not reaching, the MANY who say "I hate Spanish" to my face, to their teachers, parents, and classmates. I don& #39;t know how to do better. I& #39;m not the teacher they need, even though I try every day to be.

I worry about being a good teacher. That does not make me a good teacher. Actions matter more than "thoughts and prayers." /Rose is grumpy, fin.