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Taken from another conversation:
Having #ADHD is having constant, hard to explain anger at a system for changing the rules that I thought I understood.
It& #39;s playing poker when suddenly MTG cards are being laid down in other people& #39;s hands and I& #39;m like wait
Wait
When
What
Having #ADHD is having constant, hard to explain anger at a system for changing the rules that I thought I understood.
It& #39;s playing poker when suddenly MTG cards are being laid down in other people& #39;s hands and I& #39;m like wait
Wait
When
What
How does a full house go on the stack you can play instants against my queens what& #39;s going on I swear to god I knew the game we were playing a minute ago
Where are you getting these cards from we& #39;re drawing from the same deck we were very clear on the rules before what& #39;s going on
Why
Why are you looking at me like I& #39;m doing something wrong
Oh god
Oh god I& #39;m doing something wrong
I swear to god I knew the game we were playing.
Why
Why are you looking at me like I& #39;m doing something wrong
Oh god
Oh god I& #39;m doing something wrong
I swear to god I knew the game we were playing.
And that& #39;s b/c of a common problem those of us on #neurodiversesquad run into before we grok our respective d/x:
When someone asks us "Why can& #39;t you just [x]?" or says "You should be able to [y],"
It doesn& #39;t occur to us that "I& #39;m physically incapable of doing so" is an answer.
When someone asks us "Why can& #39;t you just [x]?" or says "You should be able to [y],"
It doesn& #39;t occur to us that "I& #39;m physically incapable of doing so" is an answer.
The most common accomodation that kids in public schools need from teachers is for some kind of sensory processing issue.
It& #39;s an easy fix. They can& #39;t listen to the teacher AND take notes AND absorb the information.
Literally can& #39;t.
It& #39;s an easy fix. They can& #39;t listen to the teacher AND take notes AND absorb the information.
Literally can& #39;t.
So, you give them the notes. Or make the slides from the powerpoint available online. Or, or, or...
So many things.
But disability advocates in schools say it& #39;s like pulling teeth trying to get teachers to do that.
So many things.
But disability advocates in schools say it& #39;s like pulling teeth trying to get teachers to do that.
Because [abled] teachers have a very clear idea of how a student should learn, and the kid should just try harder.
And it& #39;s like
If I& #39;m not tall enough to reach the top shelf, no amount of "try harder" will let me get something off of it.
Lend me a fucking stool.
And it& #39;s like
If I& #39;m not tall enough to reach the top shelf, no amount of "try harder" will let me get something off of it.
Lend me a fucking stool.
I know I& #39;m mixing my metaphors, but that& #39;s one I reach to often.
My experience of finding out at 30 that I& #39;m #ADHD,
Was like finding out that I& #39;m too short to reach the top shelf, have been my whole life, and nobody told me. And I thought I was just a peice of shit for failing.
My experience of finding out at 30 that I& #39;m #ADHD,
Was like finding out that I& #39;m too short to reach the top shelf, have been my whole life, and nobody told me. And I thought I was just a peice of shit for failing.
A dyslexic friend once described being a kid with dyslexia by saying "Nobody ever explained to me that the words on the page were supposed to make sense."
And I& #39;m like
And I& #39;m like
Likewise,
Plenty of people told me "You& #39;re so smart, [x] should be easy!"
And nobody, not one person ever in my life, followed up with "And if it& #39;s not easy, that might be a sign of something."
They just labelled me another underachieving gifted kid.
Plenty of people told me "You& #39;re so smart, [x] should be easy!"
And nobody, not one person ever in my life, followed up with "And if it& #39;s not easy, that might be a sign of something."
They just labelled me another underachieving gifted kid.
I& #39;ve been fighting the urge to go fetal and hang out under my desk where it& #39;s cozy for a hot minute, so I think that& #39;s all I have to give to the thread, but
Y& #39;all
I& #39;m disabled.
And that& #39;s the first time I& #39;ve been able to say that without feeling weird about it.
Y& #39;all
I& #39;m disabled.
And that& #39;s the first time I& #39;ve been able to say that without feeling weird about it.
I can talk about my disabilities, but I& #39;ve always felt like I didn& #39;t have a right to call myself disabled
But I& #39;ve been pouring out trauma for two hours now from trying to make myself fit a mold for three decades that I wasn& #39;t ever built to fit
And hating myself for not fitting
But I& #39;ve been pouring out trauma for two hours now from trying to make myself fit a mold for three decades that I wasn& #39;t ever built to fit
And hating myself for not fitting
My brain, which I love, doesn& #39;t work. Not the way y& #39;all& #39;s does (adhd company excluded).
I& #39;m on a not insubstantial dose of speed to be able to exist in the world y& #39;all made
Without it, I& #39;m just surviving.
AND FUCK ME, Y& #39;ALL, I& #39;VE GOT IT RELATIVELY EASY.
I& #39;m on a not insubstantial dose of speed to be able to exist in the world y& #39;all made
Without it, I& #39;m just surviving.
AND FUCK ME, Y& #39;ALL, I& #39;VE GOT IT RELATIVELY EASY.
I& #39;m bad at being a person.
But fuck that& #39;s fine Ruth is bad at being a person and I love her just like she is so goddamn much it hurts so maybe y& #39;all can love me as I am and maybe I& #39;m worthy of that.
But fuck that& #39;s fine Ruth is bad at being a person and I love her just like she is so goddamn much it hurts so maybe y& #39;all can love me as I am and maybe I& #39;m worthy of that.
Or, put in the way that gut-punched me last year:
The commonly known symptoms of #ADHD - disruptiveness, inability to focus, hyperactivity - are not, in fact, the symptoms of ADHD as experienced.
They& #39;re just the things that annoy parents and teachers. https://twitter.com/Chowderskin/status/1220215813388398592">https://twitter.com/Chowdersk...
The commonly known symptoms of #ADHD - disruptiveness, inability to focus, hyperactivity - are not, in fact, the symptoms of ADHD as experienced.
They& #39;re just the things that annoy parents and teachers. https://twitter.com/Chowderskin/status/1220215813388398592">https://twitter.com/Chowdersk...
