this morning i'm pondering the difference in xz and wyb's approaches to idoldom and how even tho wyb's younger it feels like he can act rather jaded about the industry bc he's been in it as a trainee since he was thirteen and started dancing even younger

before he knew any better about what baggage fame could bring him, and there's all these little rebellions he partakes in now (talking back to interviewers, cultivating all his sometimes-reckless-seeming side hobbies) to stay sane

so i wonder if he ever at marvels at xz having a perfectly fine day job that paid the bills and still PICKING all of this as an adult

not that fame and money and attention aren't worth it sometimes, and doing something you really love should be satisfying in and of itself, but any type of severe career pivot is crazy brave and that's not even taking everything about the trappings of idol life into account!!!

idrk where i'm going with this but i just like meditating on the dichotomy lmao, there are things to admire and consider in both approaches and they both clearly think about it a lot themselves

(see: wyb's 无感, literally every longform interview xz has given on the subject, etc)

wyb's don't give a fuck image!! xz killing them with kindness!!! I Just Think They're Neat

revisiting this thread three months later: i'm probably just not as good a person as xz but i wish sometimes that he could/would go apeshit

i was typing out a tweet about how i'd actually be interested in a fic where they have some sort of falling out because of this explicit delineation and then i realized i guess i kind of wrote that already, so as usual the clown... is me