— 365 days with han jisung

[day 1/365] happy new year sungie! it’s a new year, new decade today and i feel hopeful for the first time in a long time. you don’t have anything as far as i recall but i’m excited to see what you have planned in the future. as always, i love you.

[day 2/366] a lot of weird things happened yesterday that made me think about how a lot of things actually fly over my head. anyway!! i had a wedding yesterday to attend and you attended mcountdown today. please post my love. i miss you. but as always, i love you.

[day 3/366] a lot of bad feelings have come to me today, and i’m more uncertain about myself and my future. i don’t know where i am going and that’s so scary. if i recall correctly you don’t have anything today as well. however, as always, i choose you. i love you.

[day 4/366] bruh i just got my financial statement posted; talk about bad timing bro. uhhhh i hope you’re gonna be at the awards show tomorrow? i don’t know? will you be? i miss you a lot....but you had a music show and you were the ending fairy! as always, i love you.

[day 5/366] so i’m with my sisters in laws rn and i just heard seungmin got the flu :(( i want to fight it :(( hopefully he gets better soon! i hope you don’t get the flu cause it’s contagious :(( as always, i love you.

[day 6/366] i miss you a lot, today’s a rlly jam packed day for me you know. i miss your pretty face aaaaa!! i hope to see you soon someday :) you didn’t rlly do anything, which makes me miss you even more. as always though, i love you.

[day 7/366] i think you’re doing the mwave thing right now? i think not? i think you’re resting? i’ve been sleeping the entire day and the fact i’m going back to new york is soon approaching me...aaaa!!! i’ll lose the fact i was so close to you in time but as always, i love you.

[day 8/366] i forgot to do this completely! sorry. i woke up at 1pm today for some odd reason aha. i somehow got a cold. you performed so well at gaon chart awards today! you were amazing today my love. i’m so proud of you. always am. always will be. but as always, i love you.

[day 9/366] i still have the cold!! apparently i’m flying alone tomorrow which is a last minute decision but what can i do? gotta live with it AHA. but anyway you’re doing a twitter live tomorrow and i’m so excited i can catch it before i go!! as always, i love you.

[day 10/366] so today so far you did part one of the twt q and a, where my mutuals got noticed!! i hope to get noticed someday as well. i’m flying back today, i hope to get back here asap bc i finally found people i like! but i can’t wait to be back in nyc. as always, i love you.

[day 11/366] just landed in nyc!! my head hurts. you didn’t do much today so i’ll keep this short for today. so, as always, i love you.

[day 12/366] currently going back to my university!! i’m so proud of you for joining the last fansign yesterday, it means so much to us stays. you’re so brave and courageous for this. you’re so kind hearted for this. as always, i love you.

[day 13/366] today’s the first day of spring semester for me!! currently i’m listening to story that will never end and your voice is so beautiful. i love you so much. you’re so beautiful jisung. i’m also writing my due dates for assignments! as always, i love you.

[day 14/366] i just wanna go hoooooome!! anyway it’s the second day of the semester and things are gearing up. stray kids just released the schedule for english version of levanter and double knot and i’m so excited!! i want to see you sing in english too. as always, i love you.

[day 15/366] oh my god i completely forgot to do that!!! yeah sorry i completely fell asleep, i was so tired. i miss you so much baby. please post. anyway, your two kids room will release on saturday, cant wait to see! as always, i love you.

[day 16/366] i just woke up for some reason. i will be going back to sleep now HA, as i don’t wake up until 9:05. anyway your debut for japanese album was announced to be on march 18!! so excited for that. as always, i love you.

[day 17/366] for some reason you look so beautiful here. i love this picture here so much. anyway i go home from uni today cause i have a long weekend!! i think you’re practicing for the concert a lot with stray kids. i hope to see you next week lovey. as always, i love you.

[day 18/366] hey!! i recently saved pictures of you that are just so beautiful man. i came back to new york and am spending the weekend at my cousins place!! :D. i’ve gotten told a lot of things that got me thinking a lot. i don’t want to think anymore. but as always, i love you.

[day 19/366] you’re so beautiful it’s unreal. i don’t know how i will survive aha. anyway, i do a lot of errands today and i’m not excited to do it but i have to. but i see you in TEN days?!?! STRAY KIDS HERE I COME HH. but as always, i love you

[day 20/366] IM SO HAPPY TODAY AAAAAAAA. something good happened today so i’m happy abt that. i hope this feelings last for a little longer. anyway i don’t know what you’re doing today so i won’t know anyway. but as always, i love you.

[day 21/366] i’m so sick today i just wanna sleep without doing anything at all. but i have so much to do so i gotta suck it up ughhh. the first episode of a reality show(?) got released, so i’m happy abt that. but as always, i love you.

[day 22/366] woooo deedleedooo im having some Bad Thoughts i just want them to Pass HELP MEEEEE. anyway yeah no idk anymore i keep on thinking some things and i want out. you posted today and that made me super happy. i’m still super sick so i’m delirious. as always, i love you.

[day 23/366] i’m in that mood again where this will all pass and i’ll be happy again. i’m sick i want to not be sick again :(( i hope that’s the case soon. anyway the english version for double knot and levanter come out today and i’m excited! as always, i love you.

[day 24/366] so i’m in the bus terminal on my way to washington dc rn! i’m gonna see itzy right now!! i’m so worried though aaaaaa what if i don’t make it in on time hhhh :( the english version for levanter was so good!! as always, i love you.

[day 25/366] just saw itzy in dc!! they were so amazing!! i loved them so much. you’re going to the US right now for the show and i’m so excited for that! hopefully your time in the east coast is good! chan finally went live today and i needed it so much. as always, i love you.

[day 26/366] just had a nightmare about tuition ahah. i woke up cause i fell asleep rlly early like 5 hours ago bc i was super sick. i hope i don’t have nightmares like these anymore. i wonder how you feel coming to the us since you’re in a flight to it rn. as always, i love you.

[day 27/366] i hope you forget whatever shit show that just happened you know? i don’t want you to keep on thinking about it baby. i started classes today after missing class due to me going to dc. you’re finally in america and i’m so excited to see you. as always, i love you.

[day 28/366] i see you tomorrow!! hopefully i get to tell you how much i love you, you’ve given me the strength to live. anyway you did another guesting today, which is better than yesterday. you guys are amazing. can’t wait to see what’s in store for you. as always, i love you.

[day 29/366] i see you today! i can’t wait!! i’m so excited to see you you have no idea. i’ve been waiting for this for a month. just you wait till i get to new york! i’m currently in my dorm bus station to go to the actual station. as always, i love you. can’t wait!

[day 30/366] ahhh i saw you yesterday :(( miss you so much. i’m heading back to university and i hope i see you soon again! right now you’re going to atlanta, hope you have a safe flight my love! thanks for the cutest interaction with me yesterday. as always, i love you.

[day 31/366] i love you so much. found out something that’s tripping me up. will never call you my baby again. as always, i love you.

[day 32/366] today’s the first day of february! i can now officially say that spring break is next month. can’t wait!! i miss new york so much it’s crazy. anyway you’re resting today and going to texas i think. ahhh no same timezone anymore :(. as always, i love you.

[day 33/366] why the fuck are you biting your shirt sungie can we establish that first? you’re in your concert right now and today was one of the most tiring days of my life even tho my parents were here. i was so scared but i got through it! as always, i love you.

[day 34/366] changbin posted you yesterday!! i’m so excited i don’t know why i’m just feeling so happy right now. i see your face and there is something today that’s making me happy, probably watching extraordinary you soon cause i finished my work! as always, i love you.

[day 35/366] UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH exam season starts now let me not. as always, i love you.

[day 37/366] feel like i flopped in everything i want to annihilate myself. but i talked to my parents and i feel better about things! they give me the clarity sometimes. it’s amazing how much my dad sacrifices for me. anyway you have a concert in chicago! as always, i love you.

[day 38/366] i didn’t flop in anything it turns out AHAH. okay also i had an exam today and it was the easiest exam in my entire life and that’s saying something. anyway you have a concert in miami tomorrow, hope it goes well! you posted as well! as always, i love you.

[day 39/366] looks like i didn’t flop in anything ahahaha. i am going to see bts!! but i’m screaming i’m so broke i’m sad. but anyway i’m so happy that i’m going to see them!! i’m so excited :)) you’re having a concert today. so excited to see what you do. as always, i love you.

[day 39/366] apparently today is day 39 aha aha. i’m gonna be making some major life decisions soon, i don’t know how i feel about that honestly. i want clarity and support. you’re having your phoenix concert tmrw! so exciting! as always, i love you.

[day 40/366] so i went to see the apartment i might live in and i love it! hope i get it. i forgot to do one of my assignments so i did it and i knocked out a sizable portion of my assignments which is good! i hope i get around to doing my major things too. as always, i love you.

[day 41/366] today was......i don’t know anymore. a rollercoaster. i miss you. hope you’re resting! my love i love you so much. i won’t let you go, ever. i’ll always choose you and skz forever. as always, i love you.

[day 42/366] today was great! just felt scared haha. one class is cancelled tomorrow. yay! you have your concert on thursday and i can’t wait to see what you do. i didn’t have a lot of work today so that was good. i have an exam tomorrow i’m worried about. as always, i love you.

[day 43/366] i like. don’t know what kind of day i had! i don’t know what happened but i kind of lost strength and fell asleep very hard. i didn’t do any of my homework. sad. anyway you have your san j’ose concert tomorrow! can’t wait to see it! as always, i love you

[day 44/366] today was such a great day! got my french grade back up to where it was. got my first apartment! you have your concert today so i hope you do it well without anyone hurting. i miss you. as always, i love you.

[day 45/366] today was great! i am not going to do anything tonight but rest and eat well. happy valentine’s day! i celebrate it with friends bc i redefined it. i hope you’re spending it well. i love you so much lovey! as always, i love you. ps: you posted as well!! AAAAAAA!!!!

[day 46/366] i did pretty much nothing today. i am hoping to change it hhhhh but most likely not. you’re gonna have your concert tomorrow, your final US concert :( hope you finish it well and come back to us soon! will miss you so much. as always, i love you.

[day 47/366] i have done about 70% of my stuff. i have more to do tomorrow but that’s tomorrow’s problem you know. you have your last unlock here tonight :( i’ll miss you so much :((( please come back soon. it was so fun meeting you. as always, i love you.

[day 48/366] i did a lot of my work today! didn’t think i could do it. i’m so tired and sleepy i no longer want to work lmao. i’m sleepy. i hope you didn’t do anything today, just rested. anyway, as always, i love you.

[day 49/366] so i had a really long day today!!! had my last meeting (well second to last meeting) and itzy announced their new album!! i’m so excited :) you just posted an instagram story that i was rlly happy to see :). as always, i love you.

[day 50/366] i’m still doing homework right now!! i have such a long day in the morning so i might as well update now!! i’m so excited for whatever it is that you’re doing later today. i got my wristband for my volunteer shifts at my uni. as always, i love you.

[day 51/366] oh my god 3racha’s instagram just got reactivated! i’m so excited. and tomorrow i have my first day of a shift. can’t wait for this weekend to be over! you guys are still in LA, and you guys are still having fun. hopefully this album is fire. as always, i love you.

[day 52/366] gonna work a nightmare shift till 3 am :/ can you believe that i have to keep on doing that for 2 more days? at least it’ll be over by sunday 4pm! love that. anyway so many producers posted with you! i’m so excited for what’s in store. as always, i love you.

[day 53/366] gonna work another nightmare shift till 6 this time :/ my legs hurt so much i can’t bear to stand but i still do it anyway. i hope you’re eating well and drinking food well. i miss you so much and think of you during these times when i’m tired. as always, i love you.

[day 54/366] those nightmare shifts were actually the best days of my entire life!! i love it honestly. it made me feel like i was helping people. honestly it’s amazing to see how we’ve impacted others. anyway, i don’t know what you’re doing and i want to. as always, i love you.

[day 55//366] i was rlly tired from my shift to the point i didn’t go to 2 classes and collapsed once i finished some hw i had to do. i tried to do more work but i was so tired i couldnt. i still don’t know what you’re doing so i don’t have a lot of updates. as always, i love you

[day 56/366] i just woke up! i have no morning class today so i’m rejoicing. my legs still hurt so i’m resting them. i might actually go back to sleep after this. what are you doing? i wonder. i miss you a lot. as always, i love you.

[day 57/366] i had an eventful day today, starting with me thinking i lost my phone today. i have little work to do tomorrow but i have two exams to do so i’ll be doing them tomorrow!! can’t wait. idk where you’re still. tell us please!! as always, i love you.

[day 58/366] omg i’m going to dc tomorrow!! so excited abt that tbh. i hope i finish the dc trip safe and well. i hope i do well in all my classes, idk why i’m even struggling honestly. it’s crazy. idk where you are so i’ll patiently wait. as always, i love you.

[day 59/366] you posted and no one told me???? i’m crying so much. i missed you so much for posting. i love you so much. you went on chan live today and i saw your face and i got so happy! as always, i love you.

[day 60/366] today was an amazing day because of the fact that i met new friends. i stayed over in virginia for the first time!!! in a long time!!! help!!!!! you should post or go live soon, but i’ll be fine if you don’t. yesterday was a great ass day. as always, i love you.

[day 61/366] today’s the day i go back to pennsylvania :( this weekend was amazing though. if dc tickets didn’t cost so much i would be here EVERY weekend. AHHHHH!!! i don’t know why but i feel like today’s about to be a great day as well, before i board. as always, i love you.

[day 62/366] today’s the start of the last week before break. i’m so excited!!! you’re posting a lot and i’m so happy about this god god god god!!!! or. hyunjin is. i have so much schoolwork to do and i’m a little stressed about finances. hopefully it’s solved soon. as always, ly

[day 63/366] ahh, yesterday was so busy and productive for me!! i still have a couple things left to do but yesterday was good to me i guess. did bad in my opinion in an exam, good in another one. i need to work harder to get what i want. as always, i love you.

[day 64/366] tore my screen protector off my screen :( need a new screen protector now. i have a kind of a speech today, wish me luck! hope i do well on it, genuinely. anyway, i will practice hard for it and work hard on it. i wonder what you’re doing. as always, i love you.

[day 65/366] please keep on posting sung! i love you so much please keep on posting and doing you. tomorrow’s the start of my spring break. i get to go home tomorrow! plan to do nothing but watch dramas and sleep in my own room for the first time in a month. i hope you’re okay.

[day 66/366] i was supposed to go home today but guess what? i missed my bus. lol. i feel like crap. i want to sleep now. i don’t even know what i’m gonna do. i keep on thinking abt what would’ve happened if i hadn’t missed it or seen it leaving without me. but it’s all what ifs.

[day 67/366] i’m finally home and in my own bed after a month and a half!! i missed my bed so much. i missed my mom so much. love PA but love NYC more. anyway i hope you’re doing well and you’re not bored. as always, i love you!

[day 68/366] finally got to eat my moms food for the first time in a month! missed her cooking so much. it’s so good. i love my mom. she’s the best cook ever. she’s amazing. anyway i hope you can eat your moms cooking soon too. as always, i love you.

[day 69/366] today i did nothing but laze around and it feels sooooo good honestly. can’t wait to do this for the entire week not gonna lie. i wonder what you’re doing? are you okay? i miss you. as always, i love you.

[day 70/366] what the fuck you went live today? and i wasn’t awake to see it? what the fuck is up with that???? i’m sad abt that honestly :(((!but today as well i did nothing. not sure if school will be cancelled for the next two weeks or so. as always, i love you.

[day 71/366] so my classes are gonna be online until at least april 6. uhm, kinda happy but kinda not cause i left some things behind in pennsylvania....i don’t know what to do anymore.....anyway i hope you post soon so i get clarity. as always, i love you.

[day 72/366] professors started emailing me about the news that classes are to be moved online, the fact that i’m gonna be here bored for the next three weeks AAAA....no man so bad. anyway, i hope you’re not bored like i am. as always, i love you.

[day 73/366] starting to get back on track for studying and stuff by starting to list out whatever i have to study and everything and digitizing my notes. i’m gonna take a bit to digitize them all but i’m getting there!! i wonder what you’re doing. as always, i love you.

[day 74/366] i did a lot of my work today! i will be continuing to do more of my work throughout the night until i go to sleep so i can knock off a sizable portion of whatever i have to do by monday since my online classes start...monday.....as always, i love you.

[day 75/366] so my online classes start tomorrow....there’s literal silence. well........i don’t know what to do. haha. ha. ha. how are we going to do them? my professor hasn’t really said anything at all and IM SO NERVOUSSSS...anyway. you’re having your japan debut soon! ily!!

[day 76/366] so my online classes started today...i’ve been taking a lot of naps as of right now. studied for my poli sci exam today by facetiming a classmate and i think i’ll brush up on these concepts again tomorrow! i wonder what you’re doing. the album will release tomorrow!

[day 77/366] was really productive today, studied for my poli sci exam and went to two online classes today! so happy rn :)) you posted as well! and the album released today and i’m so so so proud of you honey bun!! you did so well. as always, i love you.

[day 78/366] well i got a 94 on my poli sci exam. i also got a lot of work done i guess.....i guess. classes got moved online for the rest of the semester and i’m sad abt that. i wonder what you’re doing. i hope you’re doing well. as always, i love you.

[day 79/366] so i finished my classes, didn’t have much to do today. my cousins picked me up and we’re in their house until monday hopefully. if we go on lockdown we’ll be there until further notice. i don’t know what to do. i hope you’re doing well. as always, i love you.

[day 80/366] it’s the weekend finally!! i can’t wait till i get to go back to my house tho. my friends are facetiming without me cause i don’t get privacy in this house :( i wonder what you’re doing :( do you miss stays? stay safe throughout this my love. as always, i love you.

[day 81/366] i’m finding so many bad news out there today. it’s making me so sad. in other news i talked with my family today! i need to work hard for my family ahaha. i miss you so much rn. please post soon. as always, i love you.

[day 82/366] damn ive been getting so much news it’s kinda crazy. officially staying in my aunts place indefinitely. i’m gonna start crying rn. hopefully this solves soon. as always, i love you.

[day 83/366] damn so much bad happening right now. people are bored, as always. who can blame them? anyway. i wasnt rlly that productive today. i feel like i’m in a rut rn, idk how to get out of it. as always tho, i love you.

[day 84/366] today’s your anniversary! i’m so proud of you for being here for two years now. i’m sorry i can’t be here for too long but i’m just here to say how proud i am of you and stray kids. you guys are the strongest people i know. never change. i love you.

[day 85/366] finally some good news today!! on track is really good, one of my favorite songs now that i think about it. what are you gonna do for your mixtape project? you’re a main vocalist already. i’m so proud of you bub! as always, i love you. happy anniversary!

[day 86/366] i was so productive today, i actually love it! i would actually love it more if i was at my own goddamn house tho. but what can i do? my anger cant solve anything. it doesn’t matter what i think anymore. whatever. as always, i love you.

[day 87/366] was so productive today!! i did class and stuff. i’m gonna start my big project tomorrow! learn how to do endnotes and stuff. so excited! also going home sunday :)) i cannot wait. as always, i love you.

[day 88/366] you gotta tell me why my aunt chased me around making me talk to two people. i’m screaming. i’m kinda upset right now and i know why but i’ll get over it soon. i was very productive today, so that’s good. i go back home wednesday. finally! as always, i love you.

[day 89/366] my mom chased me around and made me talk to a THIRD person. they’re all my relativesTELL ME WHYYYYYYY she did that. i’m appalled and horrified. anyway, i finished my 10 page paper today! i’m done with it! i’m happy :). i hope you’re quarantining well! i love you!

[day 90/366] got some news. i hope my dad gets all the blessings from god, even if i’m not that religious. let’s hope the world recovers soon from this, and we all recover soon from this. i hope you’re okay and well. as always, i love you.

[day 91/366] i’m not going home anytime soon, this is one of the worst years of my life, and i’m tired and exhausted. there’s no way out for me. i can’t even be happy cause everyone’s inconvenienced when i want to be happy. i’m miserable. hope you aren’t. as always, i love you.

[day 92/366] well, i’ve come to terms with the fact that i’m not going home anytime soon. i’ve learned to deal with it. i’m taking my work one day at a time, since that’s all i could do. however! i am being productive right now, hence my delay in this. whoops. as always, i love u

[day 93/366] so i didn’t get the grade i wanted in my exam but it’s also my fault since i gave up on studying halfway through. anyway i’m gonna try to be even more productive today so i finish my stuff up by tomorrow. anyway i have a long day soon so yeah. as always, i love you.

[day 94/366] i was very productive today! i’m not gonna open my laptop till tomorrow! i rlly wont :D please post, i do be missing you tho :0 even chan posts more than you now and i never thought that would happen. i miss you. i love you tho. take your time. have a good quarantine

[day 95/366] i’ve finally managed to schedule my classes! i’ll officially officiate them soon. hopefully. if the rest of my tuition gets paid. please i need that. anyway, you can pay my tuition 4 times over i think, right? i think so. as always, i love you. stay safe.

[day 96/366] today i managed to do some of my work! not much since i still have so much to do but still it’s progress! i also cut my hair today! it’s officially short :D. as always, i love you.

[day 97/366] YOU POSTED AAAAAAAAA!!! i can’t believe that you did. i’m so happy. i’m trying to find a reason to keep on being happy and have a definitive date for going home. i can’t wait to go home after all this is over! i want to talk to my friends. as always, i love you.

[day 98/366] i’m so tired. i just started something today. i’m dying right now. i have an exam tomorrow, please wish me luck! i need it. i didn’t do much today. however, i aim to do more friday. as always, i love you.

[day 99/366] i was rlly productive today! i did a lot of good things and i was happier today idek. somethings happened that made me mad but i got over it. i’ll be fine i hope. next month is officially the month i get away from school! hopefully. as always, i love you.

[day 100/366] happy 100 days with you on this thread! i never expected this to last so long. hopefully this lasts long and forever. uh. i have classes i cant refute that anymore. i hate to see it. YOU ALSO POSTED TODAY!! IM SO HAPPY. please post more. as always, i love you.