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I came out to my mom days before Christmas. (A thread)
Known fact na I’m getting Psych sessions since I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder with Anxiety and PTSD. But I never told my mom why I have these sessions since telling my mom I was raped multiple times isn’t the easiest thing in the world to do.
Recently, I had my worst attack to date where my wrists ended up bruised and bloody. I found a video that best represents what happened that night so I posted a status about it.
Here’s the video and of course, Trigger Warning: https://www.facebook.com/1803965702/posts/10212699667045597/?d=n
So apparently, my mom saw this status of mine and went to my room crying af. Then she asked me the magic question: “Who do you want to be with your life ba?”
She thought I was depressed because I was worried that they won’t accept me kaya she said na it doesn’t really matter to them.
It took an hour of convincing before my walls cracked explained how Pansexuality works. Also told her some of the experiences I had that resulted to my condition.
I still wasn’t able to tell her everything tho. Telling her about multiple experiences of sexual harrasment, blackmails and rape over the years can be too overwhelming for her.
Still, I was happy that my mom was accepting and told me the same thing my doctor has been telling me over and over again. I can only get better if I start accepting that what happened in the past.
That will take some time tho since I’m stubborn af and tends to suffer alone than to share my stories to others.
So yun, bored lang talaga ako kaso traffic kaya I made this thread. I’m still in the dark pero for people who are still stuffering like me, kaya natin to.
Update: Diagnosed with Bipolar Personality Disoder and hello additional medications. 
I’ve saved all my medication since day one.
Update again: My sleeping pattern is very unstable again so I’m back to drinking sleeping pills, BUT it doesn’t do much. Just more damage to my kidneys, I guess.
Ohhh update. I’m finally free from Aripiprazole, that ballooned me, which also means I can start losing weight. Which hopefully cures my Bulimia. But I’m back on daily Alprazolams and Quetiapines which I’m not sure yet if it is a good thing.
