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i just want to say this to anyone but i cannot (because the only place i could say can be read by my sister and i Do Not want that) so might as just say it here since no one talks or knows me here 
so i moved to unfortunately my country (i hate it) and had to go to a new school too for which i wasn't ready but its not like i can do anything about it anyways The Main Point
so i go to my new school it was so uncomfortable (it still is but a bit better) considering the fact it is both girls and boys and i went to a whole girls one before BUT this one boy
i had to get my glasses too so the first week i had no idea what the hell was going on or could see my classmates faces clearly but The boy kinda got my interest? attention? Idk but listen i find his name pretty ok
so finally i got my glasses after being blind for ages and seeing things clearly and my classmates faces and The boy i just found his name pretty ok No problem UNTIL i started finding him like someone i saw before
he just seemed like someone i knew somewhat familiar like ??? why
and bruh familiar is a strong word
and i was always confused as to why because honestly the only boys i ever knew in my life are two who are my cousins and younger than me unnecessary fact but listen i JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHY IS HE SO FAMILIAR WHEN THE ONLY BOYS I KNOW ARE MY COUSINS 
so it just went on with me getting confused and frustrated whenever i saw him because i couldn't point on why he looked familiar and the eyes was what seemed familiar the most and no lie his eyes are pretty (i love eyes in general and always compliment others in my mind so :D)
then like a month ago i was going through my videos where i lost more than half of it AGAIN i had like five hundred and now i have seventy and the first time i lost all my nearly three thousand absolutely sickening
anyways i was going through my seventy videos (
) and came through this
) and came through this
and i was just watching and near the end taehyun just reminded me of him like what
i legit just fully blanked out and the only think that came in my mind was his name and i just sat there and stared blankly because i didn't know what to feel anymore
LIKE ALL THIS FUCKING TIME THE REASON WHY HE SEEMED FAMILIAR TO ME WAS BECAUSE HE IS SIMILAR TO TAEHYUN AND EYE
absolutely sickening
after coming out of my blankness i ended up realizing WHY his eyes seemed so familiar and i felt so dumb because i LOVE taehyuns eyes they are so pretty
his eyes and kinda his smile too are similar to taehyun but he is so small
why can't anyone around me be taller instead of small
sometimes i just stare at him and think do u actually look like taehyun or is it just my mind playing tricks on me
he is left handed and a week ago i wanted to listen to taehyuns voice so i searched and ended up finding a video where he was writing and realized taehyun is left handed too and eye
literally what the fuck
i will prolly talk more if i can till then bye
i always go off the topic sickening
also have i said how much i love taehyun he is just so awesome how do u NOT love him
u know those kprofiles yeah so when i read about txt and saw in taehyuns about how he focuses more of present and not future i just KNEW he is gonna be my favorite member
he is so mature and understanding and just so wise and he is SO young too like Β£<}=\\9?1!&/)$-:β~%~β¬?!>
at this point i might just have a crush on taehyun and the boy both
for real tho i feel like i have a crush on him but it might not be?
i don't even know how it feels like to have a crush but oh well i guess advices are welcomed
please do so do u know the amount of eye contacts we have made its ~^?%ββ¬β¬_<^:-?*,/-&+Β£
ok coming back to this thread do u know the amount of times i saw him today or was close to him
we having exams ok so i am sitting in different class and he too so when today i went to the the class i am sitting and just saw? him?? there??? and made eye contact for the 1823th time and eye like EXUCSE ME WHAT ARE U DOING HERE
and then when the exams finished and i was standing in the line and then i heard his voice and was like wait what then looked behind and he was just..standing behind me... LIKE EXCUSE U HOW DID U GET HERE he was definitely not standing behind me before not at all
oh and also when i was sitting in the class i saw him outside and i was like eye u know what i am done
after i saw him behind i was sickened as usual then afterwards he went front because his friends were there and it made ME behind him now so THAT was better now
no lie his hair i wanted to ruffle but we just gonna ignore that alright :D
n e ways when we were moving front i accidentally hitted his feet? leg?? and he looked behind and i was like sorry i prolly looked like an idiot because i Do Not how a mouth works when i am out
and wanna know something more sickening he hitted my feet once too when we were coming back from assembly and he was standing behind me
it was before i realized he looked like taehyun
and in the class and i found a seat behind HIM too sickening
i go by bus and he i guess van or private idk so the bus students go from one specific stair so i was going to the stairs and saw him down and i stopped for one second and of course said eye then sighed heavily and went and just tried to disappear
and also yesterday when i was coming downstairs he was just standing there at the end like why
also when i was standing in the line and he was in front of me then ya know i tried to see how short he is from me :D well listen it was a nice time to see and i was curious okay
he is near my chest not That short but still :/
seeing someone taller than me feels... nice
i am tall anywhere i go and considering i am insecure, being tall doesn't feel nice at all it just makes me feel uncomfortable
ok enough me being personal this thread is not about me
wanna know when him being familiar started frustrating me more
he did seem familiar and i did try to understand then i was like its probably just my brain being dumb since i am literally new to this city and country why would someone look familiar so i took no notice of him ok going great THEN i had a dream
it was on a school day so when my mom woke me up i immediately sat up (which i never do) and was just blank then went to the bathroom and i wasn't even properly awake
ok onto The dream he was there of course this whole thread is about him and it was just... honestly I don't know how to explain.... weird?? intimate???
it was in the school only i kinda don't remember fully just some things because its been months since i saw it but who remembers their dreams fully honestly
why can't i just talk about the dream
ok the dream i was in the class and the teacher was like changing seats so i apparently had to sit next to him and we kinda..talked
and afterwards he was going somewhere i guess and i had my hands rested on the table palm sides up while holding a pencil or pen idk and he..just...kinda linked our hands..like just put his hands on top of mine loosely and smiled....i guess then left
writing this feels weird hold KJNDSNDSJDDKSSNDSEIOEEKWNDDMSNXJSSNXXNSSMDDNSMSSSMEEEEJJEENWJSNSSNDDNEEMENEENWWJWNSSNDJAHHSSBSJSSHSSHSHAAHHHHHHSHSHSHHSSHSHSSW better
dream me just blanked out for a second and i completely understand that n e ways it was kinda.... comforting in a way so thank u i guess
and i literally do not remember what happened after that but i remember i ended up crying for some reason and he was beside me and then i stood to go but he grabbed me then....kissed?!?? me like \\+&*$-β¬\\]<%%^βββ¬_"??;,,Β·\\\\Β₯???9:**12+/*:--+//~β^>=Β₯Β°?!?!!!Β°
bruh that was my first (1Λ’α΅) time seeing u in my dreams what the FUCK
my eyes immediately opened after seeing That and also my mom called me to get up that time and i immediately sat, u expected me not to do that when the last thing i remembered was someone KISSING me and the only person i remember was him and he was also sitting next to me
really sickening i cannot believe
u could say i was mostly just ??? the whole day
and seeing him i was like bitch did u see something questioning too or is it just me because listen the dream was just so....intimate and just so weird it didn't felt like i only saw it ya know?... i am being so weird
what is this an irl au because i do not like it one bit
sigh
after that i just saw him more...i guess? and he just seemed familiar more and the dream that both kinda made me want to throw myself away
i did saw him in my dreams after that too and the few i got after that were just...like i would always go emotional with him and he would be next to me it was either me being personal and going teary and shit just..... weird
i never had a dream where i go personal with someone at least from what i remember i don't know it was....comforting and its......scary too
i actually never think about him or anything related and just act like nothing is bothering me irl but writing this thread just made me realize i really just need someone to talk this to because its just...i don't know really frustrating
someone i can Talk to about this is my sisters only but i can't even talk to them about me u expect me to go her and say so u know there is this one boy in my class that looks like taehyun (they kinda don't like kpop too so wow fun) and we have made plenty eye contacts
and i also saw him in my dreams where he kissed me hahaha i did rather die
also on 26th i had my last two exams after like a week of holiday because there is some problems going on in this dumb country and its Cold ok so the school time table got messed up and thats why i gave two exams on the same day Sickening
anyways since the everything got messed up we actually did not went to our class after the exams finished just got dispersed straightaway from the class we gave the exams in ok
and this is really sickening but when i was at school i just wanted to see....the boy and was really disappointed when i could not even see a glimpse of him i did not see him for a week ok and eye
i mayhaps do have a c**** on him hahaha i want to Die :D
i am still not sure okay IT COULD BE WRONG
wow can i just find someone to talk this to
i haven't talked in this thread for awhile
i have to go to school the day after tomorrow and imma just say i Do Not want to see him
i just don't get anything okay i wanna punch him little piece of shit who told u to look like taehyun
so
he was absent today
i am not gonna say i was disappointed but :D
okay listen i am just confused of what i feel towards him ok like i admit i have a crush on him but WHAT IF IT ISN'T A CRUSH?!?!?! i have never..like been attracted... to an irl boy before okay I AM JUST CONFUSED
and so about today he came
no offense but who told u to cut ur hair That short
bruh the school literally not lets the boys hair grow a tiny bit longer because 'u arE sTiLL kiDS' like really
he looks good when the hair is not short ya know :D i want to punch myself
i forgot what i was gonna say because of my dumbass self if i remember or would want to talk i will come back bye
also yesterday ma'am was showing us our hindi (yes i am indian) exam and while distributing she was saying the marks too and i lowkey was scared because i hate hindi ok and suck at it too so when she said my name i was like KJDNNSK then said said my marks its 36/50 and bruh eye
when i tell u i was genuinely surprised i was expecting less n e ways so after when she called his name and i expected him to get higher than me at least and he got 32 KJDNSK and bruh i feel nice
ok i actually did not talked about The eye Contacts
i will talk about any and randomly because we have made alot of eye contacts ok sigh Sickening
how about starting with the most sickening :D they are all sickening but still
so that day i apparently had to sit in the first seat that was really sickening i hate first seats n e ways so theres like two doors in every class its like at the ends and i sat at the left side and there was the door right in front of me but that one is rarely used so we good
apparently we weren't good so it was break and i actually never eat so i just sit but that day i actually took out whatever i had to complete it was geography
i remember ok n e ways so i took out the book and everything and i was opening my pen then the door literally flew open and hit the table loudly and i was startled i didn't jump or anything just my eyes widening because listen i was really shocked i did Not expected That ok
also the girl sitting beside me she went behind to sit with her friends so i was alone and the door hit her table not mine
anyways so i was opening the pen right so i had the pen in one hand and the cap in the other one and with wide eyes because that caught me off guard i made eye contact with the person who opened the door violently, and u guessed it, it was The boy
bruh writing it feels like i am writing an au or something why
anyways he was shocked too and stared at me for like a second or something and said sorry and then went and eye bruh he looked scared?? idk but it was funny KJDNSDKMDNKSNDDKSK
so yeah first eye contact well it wasn't like FIRST first but yeah i actually don't even think i remember the first eye contact KDJSNNDKSKKMDK
also i actually wrote one completely different but i felt for a eye contact that went too much but what else did u expect from me i always go off topic or explain way too in detail because i guess its not that easy for someone to actually listen to me or letting me explain :D
and the picture i drew knnddjssksmmk
just came here to say that i have a crush on The boy
took me ages to admit
i admitted it on the day he was absent okay LEAVE ME ALONE IT WAS HARD
well i have to write :D but i want to talk about the eye contact that happened during the maths cra
so it was during the second half when we were doing module two and someone at the back was doing some dumbasseries with a bottle and it made a scratching sound which was really triggering and made me want to Punch
the sound was really annoying ok so i looked behind and when i was gonna look front i glanced at him too :D i got the chance ok so i took it and he looked behind too so when i glanced at him he ended up meeting my eyes too and bruh when i tell u MY HEART LEGIT STOPPED WORKING
he looked serious probably got annoyed by the scratching too and was pretty intimidating my heart went KNDSJDNNBKDJKDJJKSWMQSK
from what i noticed he seems to be good at maths or likes it so he prolly got MAD mad i guess ??? idk kjnsdjk
also i saw him in my dreams yesterday and the day before yesterday
in the morning i remembered how i had two maths today and went 'oh help my soul' and then looked towards the door and saw The boy come with his big bag and went 'help my soul for real' bruh 
i call him dumbass whenever i see him now 
KJDNNSDJK
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he looked really n*ce and reminded me of taehyun so MUCH today that eye just
THIS PICTURE IS SO MUCH LIKE THE BOY EYE AMβ
ITS SO SICKENING I JUST WANT ONE (1) TIME WHERE I CAN SEE TAEHYUN WITHOUT BEING REMINDED OF THE BOY AND THE BOY WITHOUT BEING REMINDED OF TAEHYUN
ok but at least the boy doesn't have dimples like taehyun because imagine me if he had.... bruh i did be Dead no lie dimples are dangerous have u seen taehyuns dimples its so KJDMNSSJDDNDDNDDKDDBDJSNFJDD
he comes in my dreams almost everyday...... eye
me when i wake up
so i said about how he comes in my dreams almost everyday right and he is There yes but he Hates me too like i can't talk to him irl ok understandable but i can't? even? talk??? to? him?? in? my? dreams??? like???? bruh what
like he just doesn't?? talk or i Can't and its so SICKENING like BITCH IF I AM SEEING U LET ME BE CLOSE TO U AT LEAST OKAY
the other day i had a really weird dream and of course he was there and like i was literally RIGHT THERE but mf was talking to my sister instead like ??? and BITCH EVEN IGNORED ME LIKE ???? bruh the AUDACITY i am S I C K
BUT yesterday in my dreams we held hands QOSMSDKSKDDHDDKSKMKSJDNNKQQSMBCCKS
listen i woke up yesterday So many times that i had like two to three dreams and i remember like only a few things but That i remember nicely 
so i apparently don't remember what happened before but the place was a noisy type ok and i was like listen hold my hand and he was like ?? then i told him that my hand was held before and now it feels weird ok and he looked at me even more weirdly but held my hands anyways HHHHH
when i woke up i was like wow may that was really bold of u and i remember it very nicely ok and eye just KDNNQHHSINDUIWWKAANDDVDDJZZPAAOEIIDBDDIRKAANXXNXXKDDDKOWWOSSHDDJWWNSQPAAMSS but like theres one more thing and its more Sickening
so he held my hand and i got HAPPY happy yk hehe then i was like analysing how it felt ironic since it was in my DREAMS
N E WAYS after like sometime we were apparently laying??? and outta nowhere like LITERALLY OUTTA NOWHERE he said if u love me kiss me LIKE ?????? BRUH WHAT
I HAVE A CRUSH ON U YES BUT WHY THE FUCK ARE U BRINGING IN LOVE BRUH SKHDDOSOWSKKXFOSSMBCCUSKAANFVWUNZZXLSS
so i blanked out as usual and i was just there staring at him like eye... what and then he was like u know what forget it and EYE..... BITCH HOW CAN I FORGET THAT NOW
i don't remember what happened after that nicely but eye literally WHAT goes on in my Dreams
ok but i find it ironic how i really want someone taller than me but now i have a crush on someone who is shorter than me and i.....don't have a problem but like ya know :((
damn bro idk what came over me yesterday but like.....we have a class group ok and i didn't saved Anyones number ok but like yesterday i.....saved the boy's number and eye BITCH HE WAS FUFKING ONLINE THAT TIME AND EYE MALFUNCTIONED OKAY
so i ended up updating my status apparently 
listen i wanted to see whether he saved my number too ok and he still hasn't seen it 
listen i wanted to see whether he saved my number too ok and he still hasn't seen it
i saved his name as kthalike
LISTEN ITS BECAUSE I CAN'T JUST SAVE HIS NAME OK AND ITS STILL QUESTIONABLE BUT JUST HOPE MY SISTERS NEVER SEE KJNSNSK
wait what if i call the boy kthalike now 
i blank out SO HARD whenever i end up meeting his eyes or like when he says anything to me pretty sure i look like an idiot to him
pretty sure i look like an idiot to him
on 26th i had third language exam ok so i was revising and he came near my seat since his friend was there and he took a different language ok so he was asking him about did u study this or whats important yk the usual and That was so SICKENING
like bruh he was literally smiling and laughing so Much (he smiles so much a babieβ’ 
) and it was making ME smile and i was REVISING and i COULDN'T like i literally kept messing up and afterwards i was like wait bitch is it because of HIM
) and it was making ME smile and i was REVISING and i COULDN'T like i literally kept messing up and afterwards i was like wait bitch is it because of HIM
his friend was telling him whats important and he literally kept saying oh i didn't even studied that and i was there trying not to fucking smile like an idiot
and that was the last day i saw him and i don't even know when i will see him now so :///
so i kinda saw him today :D the class he is sitting in comes in the way so when i was going to the bus i was like peeking so i could see him i haven't seen him since wednesday okay
and i just saw his big bag and a tiny bit of the side of his head he is smol ok and was probably discussing with the others i couldn't see him properly he was hidden
he is smol ok and was probably discussing with the others i couldn't see him properly he was hidden
so today i was like i Will see him so i peeked like the last time and could not see him but the bus line was long so when i stood there i could see the class and i tried to peek but he was hidden AGAIN
but the bus line was long so when i stood there i could see the class and i tried to peek but he was hidden AGAIN
and i was so SICK but n e ways after sometime i tried again and i saw him for like one (1) second i would have seen him more but the line moved forward
i would have seen him more but the line moved forward
he was smiley as usual and was probably discussing he is like the smartβ’ one in his group so KJNDSK
bruh i haven't seen him properly since last wednesday and its been a WEEK also the monday one doesn't count at all i just saw his BAG properly
but i guess one second is the most i can get these days :(
or after because :( https://twitter.com/Kwaziitae/status/1233417528975585280?s=19
i didn't even SEE him today </3
bruh i think he didn't actually came today but like he probably did i was just late 
so is it true that taehyun's favorite subject is maths because..... it probably is the boy's too and eye
fr bruh eye
ok but talking about maths i actually have so many rants about the boy in my practice nb
i was whining about maths here and didn't update about the exam and Seeing the boy so here we go
i would have talked about this on that day only but i wasn't feeling well my nose was acting up the night before the exam but dumb me didn't understood smh that kinda explains why i just didn't get most of the things on the exam day
my nose was acting up the night before the exam but dumb me didn't understood smh that kinda explains why i just didn't get most of the things on the exam day
listen when my nose is stuffy i just feel weird like WEIRD and my head does too so i don't understand half of the things ok
the exam went okay?? i still don't know how it went i just did it okay and mayhaps i left one question /accidently/ too i realized that after giving the paper thats so sad n e ways this thread is about Him
i just did it okay and mayhaps i left one question /accidently/ too i realized that after giving the paper thats so sad n e ways this thread is about Him
i wrote the exam till like ten minutes were remaining and i felt really weird didn't understood anything that went on after and i had to give fifty rupees to my teacher for class photo so here He comes
i come out of class to find the teacher and as usual peeked in the class and no him so i was going to the teacher and i saw Him standing kinda where me (the bus students stand) and eye just .
i literally did not Expected to find him there and i just malfunctioned so with a blank brain i went to the teacher and gave the money and when i was coming back to the stairs to go to the bus and i peeked again to see him
and when i was on the stairs did i realize my heart beating so FAST and i probably looked like an idiot because i REALLY malfunctioned so bad
HE WAS JUST STANDING THERE AND EYE..... EYE JUST I DIDN'T SAW HIM PROPERLY FOR DAYS OKAY AND I FELT WEIRD TOO I LITERALLY STOPPED WORKING
WHILE I WAS GOING TO THE BUS I WAS TRYING TO CALM MYSELF ANF MY HANDS WERE LIKEE WEIRD ANF I PROBABLY LOOKED LIKE AN IDIOT FR AND ON THE BUS MY SISTER ASKED ME ABOUT THE EXAM AND I JUST . MORE BECAUSE IDK HOW IT WENT OKAY N HIM I WAS JUST SO CONFUSED
i was literally like hahaha do not ask me anything haha my sister prolly thought its because of the exam but it was because Him and i was like that the whole ride back to home
and i was like that the whole ride back to home
literally i was like haha what happened haha what the fuck haha i want to dead :D..... haha PLEASE IT WAS SUCH A SICKENING DAY
i slept after coming home then realized my stuffy nose more and eye couldn't study for my next exam because of it
ALSO because of the virus the exam wasn't taken and i had a flashback to before when my two exam was pending
so we gave our two paper /again/ on the last exam date THANK GOD IT WASN'T PENDED FOR LONG LIKE BEFORE
and i didn't saw him at all on that day :(
so i saw him properly only on the day of maths exam :((
AND PIECE OF SHIT DIDN'T EVEN CAME ON THE LAST DAY OF CLASS I REALLY WAS HOPEFUL FOR NO FUCKING REASON AND I ALSO WANTED TO SEE WHAT TITLE HE WOULD GET TOO LITTLE SHIT CHOKE
so practically i saw him /properly/ properly on 26 february and yes i remember the date don't ask me how im just smart ok
this dream is just so . https://twitter.com/Kwaziitae/status/1248893186413604869?s=19
there's like three ig eye contact we had where i was just going to stare at him like i normally do ok BUT when i did piece of shit was staring?? too and BOOM eye contact
and like two ig where we had eye contact Yes but little shit was fucking Smiling like BITCH
literally just want to know whether he was smiling at Me or was it me being delusional
