I wanna talk about the voices in my head because it’s fucking FREAKING ME OUT that I hear actual people talking inside my brain.

Remember when my brain totally exploded a few months ago and I tweeted all that stuff in caps lock? Well I wanna explain what the hell was happening.
So yeah I actually hear people talking in my head & sometimes I can hear it hella clear. They tell me to go to certain places for some reason & for a while I listened. The voices of my friends and celebrities play like a secret phone in my head. This has been happening for a year
It started in November of last year when I heard a voice of someone I knew SO CLEARLY, that I opened the door and she wasn’t there.

I believed in the voices for so long, thinking that I was actually listening to other people’s thoughts in my head via the internet.
There are certain times in the year when I can hear these people really clearly & it lasts all day. I have conversations in my head with them & we talk about love a lot. This is all no cap at all by the way, this has been my life for the last year. It’s actually heartbreaking https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💔" title="Gebrochenes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Gebrochenes Herz">
For real I ruined SO MANY relationships in my life that I can never repair because I believed the voices in my head.

There are times when it’s a voice of someone I know telling me to go somewhere and meet them.

I go there hoping they’re there waiting for me but they never are.
So this is a message for future Michael just in case I get REALLY bad again like before:

DO NOT BELIEVE THE VOICES IN YOUR HEAD. THEY ARENT REAL. ACT NORMAL. YOU CANT HEAR OTHER PEOPLE’S THOUGHTS...

I really need to tell myself this because it is ruining my life. No cap
It’s crazy though because certain people in my head are sweet as fuck. None of them EVER want me to kill myself. Sometimes I even have conversations with these voices when I’m alone and bored, and we talk about love a lot. Sometimes they’re my only friends I have to talk to.
Oh and I tried taking medication for this stuff but it made my dick stop getting hard so I was like NAH BRO

I’ve been off meds for a month and I’ve been actually chillin, not really hearing anyone.

I got

Depression
Anxiety
Bipolar
Schizophrenia

DABS https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Gesicht mit Freudentränen" aria-label="Emoji: Gesicht mit Freudentränen">
By the way my dick works fine now, thanks
So if you wanna still support me and my art after knowing this, it really means a lot. I love you https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🖤" title="Schwarzes Herz" aria-label="Emoji: Schwarzes Herz">

I really hope it doesn’t get worse, pray for me yo. I’ll stop tweeting now
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