#Trauma is overwhelming.

First you don& #39;t know what the hell happened.

Hell happened.

You are horrified about not only the WHAT, but the WHOM.

Once you sort that — you are convinced it& #39;s your fault.

It& #39;s not.

You were looking for hope — hell found you instead.
Grooming makes the victim feel complicit.

All persuasive predators groom.

Therefore most victims feel complicit in their own abuse.

They are not.

You wanted to be fed. You were eaten instead.

And now you are deeply ashamed of ever being hungry in the first place.
Brutality blew your balance to bits.

Victimization violated your vestibular apparatus.

The savagery makes your head spin — your heart too.

You work so stinking hard to find and keep some human stability.

This is difficult because the ground beneath your feet keeps shifting.
You think you will never stop loosing ground — but you do.

You think you will never move forward — it happens.

It& #39;s slower than you want — much.

You are fragile still and vulnerable.

You hate vulnerable.
You hold stead the light from a place of safety and stability.

You remain on the search and rescue squad.

You know the map and the territory.

You stick close to the compass.

The path is no less perilous — but you are better able to self protect.

Onwards.

#recovery
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