okay so i am TERRIFIED but I& #39;m doing is which already is something to be proud of. I& #39;ve been dreading this for so long, for years i just told myself i didn& #39;t need it, which is dumb but understandable.

i agree with the statement that the starkids aren& #39;t your therapists https://twitter.com/ColleensSneeze/status/1199809628588191744">https://twitter.com/ColleensS...

and oversharing dark thoughts that have nothing to do with them is just A LOT! this will sound pathetic but that& #39;s how i used to cope with it all. I& #39;d dm jeff, write to him as if he was my friend and I& #39;d delete it later. only to find out that you can& #39;t ACTUALLY delete your dms.

thankfully jeff knew exactly what to do and helped me out. I& #39;d never would& #39;ve done this if i knew there was a chance he would read them but now I& #39;m glad he did see. He is the reason i am getting help and feeling hopeful doing so. i owe him a lot and all i want to do is thank him.

please seek the help you need even if that first step seems terrifying. things can get dark and lonely and you don& #39;t have to do this alone.

am i writing this long paragraph because the fact that it& #39;s almost starting is making me want to vomit and run away? possibly.