Real life talk. LARPERs be gone.

Had some serious women-drama in the past 4 years. After 22 years of marriage an emotional and sexual wildfire highly welcomed to burn out the old brushes.

Decided to go monk mode and focus on myself.

There was this one lady, tho.

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My age. Former popstar. Beautiful, witty, fit. We talked for two years, shared the same humor.

She gets tons of attention, 2 -
300 PMs every day on FB alone, blablabla.

Grew closer. Six months ago I thought, well, maybe starting another family is not my focus anymore.

2/

Maybe a gorgeous woman my age is a good thing.

She‘s cool. She‘s had it all. We laugh all the time. She‘s supportive. Sexy.

I‘m 100% focussed on my future. I have a good relation with my past, but it‘s just that: my past. The future is what‘s up.

We weren‘t exclusive.

3/

She had an orbit. I had plates.

But we came closer. Decided to spend Christmas together.

She really shared. Told me her darkest secrets - she liked the way I handled her. No soy.

But I had one question I couldn‘t quite figure out:

Is she an alpha-widow?

4/

Is she an old woman that has no other goal but to somehow relive the excesses of her past? Or is she a young woman, having broken with her past and working hard on a better future?

As a popstar men had worshipped her, and she could treat them any way she wanted to -

5/

and some real nasty stuff she had did, bruh .

But she stopped, lived in recluse and abstinence for six years and only opened up to me. Yet, was this real?

I‘m a natural leader. Men do things because I do them. I have always had that, never used it for anything good.

6/

I realized that there is a certain type of „follower“: they put me on a pedestal, call me „genius“, and copy what I say and do. - Never had anything but disgust for that creepy shite.

Towards me they are submissive - but if I show interest in a woman, they will chase her.

7/

So when this 22yo „incel“ showed up and started to imitate everything I did, I told her „in less than a week he will dryhump your legs“.

„Oh no,“ she said, „I would NEVER.“

Two weeks later they were „in love“.

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I blocked both the minute I realized.

I was relieved. My question had been answered. Alpha-widow. Time to move on.

Worked out more. Ate steaks. Did intermittend fasting 6/18 daily. Read „Sanction“. Prayed the rosary more often.

Today, a month later, I got a letter.

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It‘s from her. It‘s heavy. 4 full handwritten pages, I‘m guessing, maybe 5.

Wrote „Let‘s not overcomplicate things. Cheers!“ on the envelope. Brought it to the post office, unopened. Return to sender.

No time for drama. Time is of the essence. Women get that - or not.

Cheers!