I spent most of my adult life betabuxing because I genuinely thought that I needed a woman’s approval to have any sense of worth. I thought the way to get that approval was to be the reliable good guy provider.

30+ years, 2 marriages, 5 step kids, 1 bio kid, and 1 LTR later I found I was nothing more than an ATM with a dick. I was an expendable, easily replaceable commodity. How’s that for “self worth”?!?

Now my youth is gone. The step kids I raised and provided for have nothing to do with me. I let myself get used up because I thought that was the only way anyone would ever love me. That’s entirely on me.

I can never recover those lost years. They are gone forever. All I can do is what I have been doing these past few years which is go my own way.

I implore the young men out there to not make my mistakes. Young men don’t have much value but they have great potential. You can be anything. Just go and do it. Do not use women as a measuring stick for success. Use goals and accomplishments