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I feel like I should talk abt my experience w gender identity so yâall can understand why rting terfy and/or transphobic shit is harmful to ur followers
ever since I was a little baby worm in primary school Iâve wanted to âfit in with the boysâ but Iâve never felt strongly Transgender Male. always just a girl who is fine with being a girl but would be happy if she were to have been born a boy etc
I cried when I had to wear a bra for the first time and when I had my period for the first time it finally set in that I was âreally a girl.â
however I do like to be feminine and I love dresses and having longish hair and wearing makeup â all traditionally feminine things
however I do like to be feminine and I love dresses and having longish hair and wearing makeup â all traditionally feminine things
I then became a citizen of the online-o-sphere & found trans media and I was like damn... that me? & when I was 13 I identified as male.
I cut my hair & started wearing masc clothes but thatâs it. I also tried to get a binder but never did. I never wanted to medically transition
I cut my hair & started wearing masc clothes but thatâs it. I also tried to get a binder but never did. I never wanted to medically transition
I started using the name Axel Iâm school documents & my parents found out. they basically told me to âstop thatâ and I listened
I then had an entire crazy conservative phase? as a rebound from my ~fragile liberal minded thinking~ basically donât let ur kids on the internet
I then had an entire crazy conservative phase? as a rebound from my ~fragile liberal minded thinking~ basically donât let ur kids on the internet
however despite being a hyper conservative cis girl I wanted to look masculine, I wanted a flat chest, I wanted to sing like Paul Banks and carry myself like Brandon Flowers â all points to being male or traditionally masculine
but then I got over that conservative phase
but then I got over that conservative phase
by the time I was 15 I eventually stopped thinking of myself as any gender whatsoever and just did that I wanted â âcall me whatever pronounsâ type deal but leaned a lot towards cis girl. I was very very feminine
but then... I started leaning back towards masculine expression
but then... I started leaning back towards masculine expression
once again, I called myself a cis girl but wanted to be a boy in a band, cut my hair short again like Fabrizio Moretti, etc
a pivotal moment was when I was imagining my life in the future - daydreaming - and I saw a man. I couldnât see my female self
a pivotal moment was when I was imagining my life in the future - daydreaming - and I saw a man. I couldnât see my female self
and I still canât. I see my college self as a boy, I see my professional self as a man, I just see myself as this man Iâve never ever looked like â and do I even want to? who is he? am I just insecure about my femininity?
but I still express mostly feminine and love how I look
but I still express mostly feminine and love how I look
however I am insanely jealous of male friendships, how men carry themselves, how they look, even how they sound but I donât really want to consciously be a man or transition or anything
and even tho Iâm non binary (right now) even THAT freaks me out
and even tho Iâm non binary (right now) even THAT freaks me out
because as long as Iâm non binary men and women both wonât look at me the same, I donât fit into either category, nothing feels right or comfortable even the label I assumed because neither binary gender felt right
itâs just confusing and I feel like Iâm lost in the dark
itâs just confusing and I feel like Iâm lost in the dark
because I look female but see myself as male but donât want to transition to be a trans man but I feel uncomfortable as a woman because I see myself as a man and uncomfortable as non binary because itâs a completrly@different category and yyyEEEAAHHHH
