My psychologist told me if I don& #39;t start to unlearn this thing of feeling like an inconvenience to everyone and a burden to my parents, I& #39;m going to end up becoming grandparents to my own kids because I already acted like a parent to my own parents. He said its either that or...

I& #39;m going to end up with partners in the future who will end up parenting me because I avoided being a kid for so long just so my parents could have it easier and I& #39;ll end up putting that burden on my romantic partner. Even though being a burden is what I& #39;ve tried to avoid.

I hear him but could he not be so loud???

Anyway, I& #39;m trying to build enough courage to ask my parents for money again even though I already know what the answer is going to be but I& #39;m going to do it and I& #39;m not going to feel like a burden or an annoyance when I do it.

So far, I feel shame and I wish I didn& #39;t exist but I& #39;m still going to make the phone call.

I& #39;m panicking.