My psychologist told me if I don't start to unlearn this thing of feeling like an inconvenience to everyone and a burden to my parents, I'm going to end up becoming grandparents to my own kids because I already acted like a parent to my own parents. He said its either that or...

I'm going to end up with partners in the future who will end up parenting me because I avoided being a kid for so long just so my parents could have it easier and I'll end up putting that burden on my romantic partner. Even though being a burden is what I've tried to avoid.

I hear him but could he not be so loud???

Anyway, I'm trying to build enough courage to ask my parents for money again even though I already know what the answer is going to be but I'm going to do it and I'm not going to feel like a burden or an annoyance when I do it.

So far, I feel shame and I wish I didn't exist but I'm still going to make the phone call.

I'm panicking.