izuku couldn’t understand the horrified eyes that looked at him.

eyes that usually looked at him with playfulness, or gentleness.

the omega had just been rescued, but he was being restrained. words like ‘apprehended’ and ‘captured’ flew around the room.

green eyes looked to his mate, his alpha.

‘kacchan... what... what’s going on? why am i cuffed?’ his voice was weak, and small. kacchan’s face was stoic— the only giveaway were his eyes.

he kneeled in front of the greenette, not touching him.

‘why did you do it, deku?’ his voice cracked on the last syllable. something was wrong, something was horribly wrong, where—

‘w-where’s hiro and kai?’ he asked, the words a hushed panic. kacchan said nothing, which only made the omega pump out a sour scent of distress.

‘kacchan where are they? where are my pups?’

he swore he saw kacchan flinch, saw his hands clench and relax. izuku thought he was going to pass out, his breathing rapid as he fought off a panic attack.

‘what the //fuck// kind of game are you playing with me, kacchan?!

where are our pups?!’ he didn’t mean to raise his voice, but now he was starting to see stars. something didn’t feel right.

and now his mate was glaring at him. ‘what the fuck do you— you think this is a //game//?’ now kacchan stood, and he was shaking.

izuku was losing patience too, but his anger left as quickly as it had come. replaced with big tears that rolled onto his cheeks. ‘p-please... please tell me wh-what’s going on...’

‘tch, why don’t you tell me first?’ kacchan’s voice was dry, emotionless.

the greenette furrowed his brows. ‘i—i was //kidnapped//, kacchan. you know that! the league took me on my way home from the s-stupid grocery store and... and they broadcasted my torture to e-everyone. i //know// you saw!’

kacchan flinched again and he growled in frustration. he didn’t have any words, so he just threw a file at izuku. confused, the greenette opened the envelope.

kacchan has never heard that kind of heartbreaking howl in his entire life.

and it was only then that kacchan realized his mate was innocent. they knew he’d been kidnapped, but they didn’t know by who. with deku confirming that it was the league, it clicked instantly.

‘toga,’ he choked.

in the envelope were photos of deku killing their children. their little pups.

and everyone though the izuku in custody— the one gasping for air as he choked on his tears— was the culprit.

it was easy enough for the other heroes in the agency to hear katsuki out. to explain that it wasn’t izuku, that it was toga. and it only took a couple days to catch her because she’s sloppy, always has been.

izuku was inconsolable. someone explained everything to him (after he asked), telling him what katsuki already knew: their four year old son died protecting his baby sister, who was murdered by toga dressed as izuku last.

then, he went numb. he couldn’t talk, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat— he just barely existed.

things with his mate, his kacchan, got tense. because kacchan assumed he was responsible— even if he realized the truth fast enough, there was still a gap

of time where he convinced himself that izuku could kill their children in cold blood.

katsuki tries to make amends. but izuku is very hesitant to let him in. they go home, well, somewhere that //used// to be home.

izuku expected to hear coos and giggles from the door.

but all he got were ghosts.

he went to their rooms, because none of this felt real, and he fell to his knees when the rooms were dark. the same harrowing sobs tore through his throat as he imagined how scared they were, what their last little sounds were, if they begged for

“mama” to stop. it was too much to bear.

it’s the first time he lets his mate hold him. he sobs openly in katsuki’s chest, and he feels like he’s dying.

for the next two months, every time izuku wakes up in the morning, he thinks ‘i want to die.’ he’s still numb. he’s still in excruciating pain. but the worst is when he first wakes up, before the reality sets in. he can see their beautiful pups and he forgets.

only to open his eyes and have his world collapse all over again.

he was only taken for three //weeks//. how did everything go so horribly wrong? not just wrong... how did his life get so completely ruined?

the only public statement he’s made is that he’s officially retiring from his hero work.

he plans to move. or just go away. somewhere else, somewhere he can //breathe//.

he doesn’t notice how sick he’s been getting. it makes sense in his mind, he had to bury two babies, of course his body doesn’t know how to keep food down.

he’s slowly gotten closer with his mate.
(they both share the same grief after all.)

katsuki tried to stay strong, but it all came to a boiling point after the funeral. he broke down so completely, screaming and sobbing and breaking things before he collapsed on the ground.

izuku’s shaking hands grabbed onto the hands that had fisted themselves into the alpha’s blonde locks. izuku’s not sure how long they held each other, sobbing together.

and he finds himself needing to be near his alpha. he just equates it to needing to be near the one tether he has to his babies.

their rooms get packed up after three months, and izuku can barely get through the toys without bursting into tears.

they decide to move.

and yes, they did talk about separation. it was during the first month, and izuku was convinced kacchan hated him, still blamed him. but they ultimately decided that the love they have is too strong to break, and that they need each other more than ever now.

when izuku is told that his sickness is pregnancy related, he faints at the office.

he’d gotten pregnant before he was kidnapped.