me: this fic... i will control it,,,, it will not take over my life
my brain: jimin in ballerino tights and a crop top dancing to juice by lizzo
me: you BITCH!!!!

so i promised to keep this short except im doing the plotline (i use the word plod super loosely here) and i wrote down "7th scene" and i cursed out loud. scene 7 isn't even the last one. do you ever loathe yourself?

there you are by zayn playing while i write this vmin.... i should title the fic after this song

"I will not bone Jimin," taehyung lied like a liar

i should write taekook more often

scene 1 done and im already at 1.2K words. sigh.

u know what? I've decided to not fight this. I'm gonna let her do her thing. Long, short, soft, horny, sweet??? She's my baby and im gonna support her

done with scene 2. After edits the fic is now at 3.4k. I actually love them in this fic even if i feel like my writing sucks a bit??? Idk i think it's me still fighting the block rather than my actual writing being bad. We'll see.

so far the playlist for this fic is
juice - lizzo
crazy - britney spears
there you are - zayn
come on over - christina aguilera

i know i make this tweet every time i write a fic but google doc's suggestions are annoying 100% of the time

this is why my fics always end up longer than predicted. i never know how to shut up

okay im done for today. I wrote 4.9k words. I think the fic is 1/3 of the way done. gonna be pretty busy tomorrow so i hope i dont lose that spark and i can keep going! I'm really super excited about this??? I'm writing some good stuff

oooof im really happy about scene 3. It's not sone yet but i like the tension.... the sweet possibility of them in the air.
5.3k words.

listen!!!! This is justified

i forgot the word spine so i typed vertabrae

scene 3 is DONE woop woop. ~6.3k

im doing research and look who i found

dktdutsktstidody im so excited to share this fic! scene 4 took a sweet turn i wasnt expecting and thry're being all cute and flirty and gaaaahhhh i love them!!!!

scebe 4 is done and the fic is at 7.4k words now. I think it's about halfway done

i know i basically shared like the entire fic but i want to scream abt them

i found the title for this fic and im excited again. you make me crescendo ( a pun and also a horndog song for my hornie musical boys). it's from lizzo's lingerie

so im writing scene 5 right? And it's THE scene... you know....the crop top scene. except it's already 1.5k words and there arent even IN the dance practice room yet. i mean im not complaining. it's a super sweet intro to what will be a hard (in every sense of the word) moment

for taehyung. it's just that originally this was supposed to be a drabble and it's now 9.1k words.

ok i decided scene 5 was not gonna be the crop top scene. I wrote 2.5k of them being vulnerable and sweet. Having them tirn into horndogs would kinda ruin it??? I feel like. So crop top jimin will appear in sc. 6. Oh and the fic is now at 10k

this fic is ridiculous btw

me: okay done for the night
me, rereads one line and finds a way to make the scene even sappier:

11.3k and still no sign of jimin's crop top but i hust wrote a GREAT (imo) taegijinkook scene... i love love love writing friendships

finally, after 13098 words

and we're done for today. 13.2k.
I wrote 2.9k word this evening. Not too bad. I seriously doubt this will end up being under 20k. Which..... sure fine whatever im used to it.but also might be up on wednesday... sorry

this is going to sound like im not self aware but i really cant believe the lil drabble i promised viki is now at 13.7k and i'm barely halfway through

havent written much this week but the other half of the fic is lot clearer in my head now. It's gonna be even longer than anticipated. my new goal is to keep it under 25k. I promised not to rein her in so she's spreading her wings. There will be a hint of angst but not too bad.

also i made the moodboard already

i did write a lil today

we are at ~15.5k words folks ans it's getting gayer and hornier

the research i've had to do for this fic though. violin, classical music, traditional drums, retirement homes, oils.........

you make me crescendo; or the fic where every horndog scene is just a soft scene waiting to be revealed

hhhhhhhh this scene turned out way longer than anticipated. The fic is already at 17.8k

ok so wrote scenes 8 & 9 today. Out of (hopefully) 15. It was over 5k. The fic is now at 19.2k words. There's no way in hell this wont be at least as long as mad warm. Maybe even longer. I cannot BELIEVE this!
Also i love joon's introduction in this fic. Looooved writing scene 9.

so cheesy i know but i lob

this one goes out to @librajiminn you can all blame her

been writing scene 10 for 2 days now and it might be my fave so far. Also i thought i would be teerible with writing UST but im ok

i thought i could finish up scene 10 but hhhh already wrote 2k today and the scene is only starting.... anygays

me: is delighted by how much this story has grown
also me, thinking about the editing process:

scene 10 just refuses to end...... i've been writing it for 3 days..... the fic is at 22k now...... send your thoughts and prayer pls

i love this fic so much!!!!!!

I just wrote the best confession scene i've ever written hihihihi

3 days and 4872 words later, scene 10 is finally done.
the story is now at 24.4K words. damn this is one hell of a drabble

in the shower this afternoon, i thought of a really cute scene to transition between scene 10 which is big soft and a lil angsty and scene 11 which is a lot hornie. so i decided to include it real quick thinking it wouldn't be much. It ended up being ~1.4K and also one of my fave

things i've ever written. the new scene 11... please if you read this fic, remember scene 11 and tell me how you liked it

oh also the fic is almost at 25k now and i still have 5 more scenes to write. I really am gonna write almost 40K of violinst tae lusting tenderly after ballerino jimin.... truly incredible

Kookie... ya fool

hate writing description and i find describing dance is a whole new level of HELL
scene 12 is going well thanks for asking

The fic is at 30.7k and im only now starting the scene that viki wanted to see. Yoi could say i like edging.

hhhhhhhh so funny story scene 12 ended being 6950 words long. The fic is now at 33K and i still have 4 scenes + epilogue to write. hahahaha so funny!!!!
but they have finally smooched ;)

I have absolutely lost control

did I just add 1k words to an already very long scene just to have a moment where Jimin lifts Taehyung up in the air? who's to say really? not me!
(but would it really be a ballet fic if someone didn't get lifted in the air? no. no it wouldn't be!)

How many readers will i lose if i keep this in the fic?

gfrdtrsets sc 13 which was only meant to be a transition scene, ended up being almost 2.5K long and was heavier in angst than anticipated? Also somehow they ended up confessing to e/o again. i swear all these gays do in this fic is confess.
anyways 36.4K words. ://///

also it's the scene that warranted the addition of Say You Love Me to this fic's playlist.

i wrote 5.4K today!!!!! omg! plus some edits!!! ugh im really proud of this fic!!! aaaahhhhh can't wait to share it.
it's at 38.4K now. im gonna stop posting predictions because i still have 3 and a half scene to write including smut (which is always long with me) SO! fuck.

im doing some edits on scene 13 and it's even longer now but also, it might be one of my favourite things i've ever written. also the most tae thing i've ever written.
anyways i know i sound like a broken record. i hope you all muted this thread for your sake but i love this fic

guess who's grown baby is now at 40K?

me, emotional about the idea of finally giving taehyung some ballerino ass:

me: let's get to the smut
also me: how about 2k of soft mush before that
me: absolutely

also this is the 1st fic since the release of 4 o'clock without a moon analogy.... im growing

not to spund conceited but is this not the most apt jimin description ever?

scene 14 has a difficult start but it's developed into this sweet little safe heaven and if I hadn't built 40K of UST and didn't need to write at least one smut scene to diffuse the tension, I would probably end the fic with scene 14 and have the performance be the epilogue.

also, just as a reference, the songs that go with this scene are
There You Are -Zayn
Delicate - Taylor Swift

wrote around 4K today. Less than I hoped but today's scene was important and hard for personal reasons so im actually proud of today's work.
42.6k
we're almost there, folks.

just wrote a lil scene where tae's feet hug jimin's. Maybe i need help.

if you thought!!!! mad warm or lisu were soft..... ohhhh boy!!!! i got some news for you. im retiring from fluff after this. this will be my peak and any attempts afterwards will just be beating a dead horse. i can't out-gentle this.

44k. im just laying down in bed after putting away my laptop for the day and thinking: 44k drabble

46.6k words. I still haven't started on the smut. this is, to be quite fucking honest, outrageous!!!!

I tgink the pb is that
1. i never planned for this fic to become my longest fic ever
2. the trope is UST and so i feel like after 47k of it, i need the smut to be GREAT
3. I hate writing smut
4. Stan twt has made writing smut even less appealing
5. Smut is the worst

47.5K and still no boning in sight. in fact I once again had to rearrange the plotline to be able to incorporate new elements. good thing tho is that i will be able to include both ideas by @laetiindisguise and @librajiminn in one scene.
this fic might not get posted this we tho

this one goes out for @librajiminn and @polyjimin

welp. 51k. YMMC is officially the longest fic I've ever written. god bless viki and her prompt!

after 56.4K the smut is finally done. I tried something different this time... i hope people will like it. If they don't, it's just smut, they can skip it. (still nervous hhhh)
but anyways I only have the the last scene which in two small parts + epilogue and this baby is done.

wait it's actually 54.6k lmao no i did not write 5k smut today.

i wrote in tae's foor fetish AND tae leaving bruises on jimin's thighs. Me and @laetiindisguise main kinks

I do know i could have ended this fic 5k ago but also I just really wanted to write them together, starting a relationship together. So yes, im indulging myself but i think it's nice to see stories explore domesticity.

also next time someone comes for fluff writers i will come for their kneecaps bc writing fluff is hard!!!! And writing domestic fluff is harder!!!!!!!!!

jgfgkcghgc, i just realised as im starting on the epilogue that i'm basically done??? the epilogue is all but written so i can actual start on the editing process tonight. omg guys. if things go right, you will have this fic within the next 24 hours

why do i always end my longest fics with unnecessarily angsty epilogues? who knows. Anyways the 1st draft is officially done. word count as of now is 58871. Let's see how much it goes up.