Tomorrow is a big day as it's the digital release of Godzilla King of The Monster's. Or, it would be a big day for me if it weren't for how seriously sad I get while watching it.

I absolutely love the movie but a certain monsters "Death" made me so sad it's unbearable.

I don't even understand WHY. It's a fucking movie so why is this affecting me like this?

It's not really a secret that monster is Mothra, and for some reason, because of this I end up more sad than you can imagine whe she's on screen.

Even if it's just trailers I'm watching.

I'd like to ask you not to judge me on this, I'm sure you all have characters whose deaths in things have affected you as well.

While I cannot explain why I get so upset now when I see her, all I know is it happens and it's painful.

Not even sure if I can rewatch the movie now.

I want it to stop to be honest...

I THINK I get sad because she didn't deserve to die, and of all the monsters in the movie she was the best looking and most loyal. She literally sacrificed herself without a second thought just to save Godzilla and that breaks my heart.

But other than that I don't know why.

I mean, I literally break down into tears when she appears on screen, and I hate it.

Something about that kinda loyalty gets to me I guess.

Cause of all of them, she definitely deserved to live the most.

Anyway. It hurts like hell.

Spoilers but just read this.

This is why it makes me so sad to see her in the film now. Or at least I think so.

She sacrificed herself and in doing so gave Godzilla her energy so he could defeat Ghidorah.

That is LOYALTY!!

I couldn't find the artist but this hurts me so much.

This is literally a representation of what my last post was about.

Godzilla has already become burning Godzilla after her sacrifice and it seems as though her spirit is now hovering over him watching and protecting him

OH MY GOD THIS IS EVEN MORE UPSETTING!!

I just realized what part of the movie this is from!

It's after her fight with Rodan, her wings have some burned holes in them and she's on fire standing on Godzilla's back!

It's moments before she flies forward and sacrifices herself

I read that it's possible before arriving in Boston that Mothra may have laid an egg in case she died.
Cause apparently in the originals she'd do that and then reincarnate.

Plus in the credits there's a newspaper mentioning they may have found another Mothra egg. With a picture.

I seriously hope she reincarnates and returns for Godzilla Vs Kong. I seriously don't want to have to wait YEARS to see more of this version of Mothra, especially with how little screen time she got.

I swear if she doesn't I'm gonna be so upset. I mean come on, she deserves more screen time.

Mothra was a badass and she didn't get enough time to shine.

So, I think my theory of Kong and Godzilla teaming up in Godzilla Vs Kong may actually be true.

During the credits of King of The Monster's it's explained that something is drawing the Titan's to Skull Island, which will obviously be how Godzilla and Kong meet right?

Well, at the same time the end credit scene of King of The Monsters showed the human villian of the movie being shown a leftover decapitated head of King Ghidorah from the aftermath of the battle, which it's then implied he buys. So, what if he bought Ghidorahs head and built

mechaghidorah? It makes sense, too much actually. Plus as I've said before, no matter who wins if Godzilla and Kong actually DO continue to fight, plenty fans will be pissed off, so it'd be better just to make them team up to take down Mechaghidorah. With the help of Mothra and

Rodan of course. And perhaps whatever has lured the Titan's to Skull Island will be something Godzilla and Kong will have to deal with as well.

There is more evidence to back this theory up in the form of the description for Godzilla Vs Kong, which apparently reads something

Like this.

"As Monarch embarks on a perilous mission into uncharted terrain and unearths clues to the Titan's origins, a human conspiracy threatens to wipe out the creatures, both good and bad, from the face of the earth forever".

I don't know if it means I'm right but

I honestly don't care who wins as long as Mothra shows up somewhere in the movie, with preferably the same design.

It's also funny how Godzilla King of The Monster's Digital release is tomorrow, the 13th.

Cause that is exactly 7 months away from the release date for Godzilla Vs Kong.

OMG!!! WHAT IF THEY DROP A TRAILER FOR GODZILLA VS KONG TOMORROW AS WELL?!

I think y'all can see how important these movies are to me.

Godzilla 2014 did a lot for me, and of all live action movies ever made, it has helped me most over the years with my Mental Health, and now King of The Monster's is MORE important to me.

So I watched the original Mothra, and besides Godzilla (2014), Kong Skull Island and Godzilla King of The Monsters, it's the best Kaiju movie I've ever seen.

I loved it because unlike Godzilla it wasn't just about destroying everything, it had a great story!

Now, as I posted earlier. I REALLY hope Legendary gets to make their own Mothra movie. I don't understand my sudden obsession with her but it's a serious one that's for sure, and I really want her to get more screen time.

I know I know, the whole Mothra thing must be getting annoying by now but honestly that's what this thread is for, and I'm keeping this thread going for a long time.

I actually had a cool idea for a story about Mothra, call it a fanfic if you want but it'll be the length of

A full book. Of course all rights to it will go to the original creators, Toho, and legendary. Since it'll be based off their character.

Who knows, if it goes well maybe I can pitch my idea to legendary for a Mothra movie

Yeah like that'll ever happen, But I can dream right?

Apparently there's a chance Mothra's gender might change when she's reborn.

I seriously hope that doesn't happen but I can't really complain if it does.

I don't know what to do anymore.

From my Xbox refusing to stay connected to the internet rendering my 400+ games unplayable to my unbearable sadness regarding Mothra that I STILL don't fully understand that's making me more Depressed than usual, I'm just lost on what to do :(

Ugh, this is becoming seriously annoying. WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING!!!

Okay so I can't deal with this right now. It's a new fucking pain and it's unbearable and I don't get it and I also don't get why I'm talking about it cause it's weird and I know people are judging me and I just want it to stop but it won't and now I'm fucking crying again.

Kill me...

Well I suppose there's only one logical thing to do.

Watch Godzilla King of The Monsters cause it's the only thing that makes me feel better yet at the same time makes me feel worse.

Okay okay, it's fine, I'M fine

*deep depressed sigh*

You're not crying, I'm crying

Wait no. Fuck.

What has this thread even become?!

Eh, whatever. This thread is personal anyway.

I hate my emotions, they've become nothing but literal torture

It'd be better if I just stopped talking and disappeared...

All of this is so fucking stupid and unfair. Haven't I suffered enough?

I guess apparently not...

Yeah, I'll just shut up, it's better that way.

So during the credits of King of The Monsters they revealed the name of that spider crab Titan thing. It said Scylla.

Is this fan art or is it legit?!

I get the feeling she's gonna be playing a big role in Godzilla Vs Kong.

"History shows again and again how nature points out the folly of man! Godzilla!".

God I love these lyrics.

Honestly all this is hard to explain.

Things have been so weird lately, this loneliness thing for starters which has been a problem for over a week now non-stop, plus the whole Mothra obsession and unbearable sadness that has come with it, which of course no one cares about.

But it's worse than it sounds. Honestly.

More than ever it feels like my life isn't worth living. Each day now just feels like survival, not living. It feels like I'm just surviving each day while awaiting my end. Especially with all this Mothra stuff. It literally has me so

sad I have actually been considering killing myself to get away from it. Yet, it's also like, a happiness as well. Like I said, I don't fucking understand it or why I feel this way but I do and it sucks.

I suppose it's fine though. No one understands. Not even me.

So I can't expext any comfort or support with any of this. Which I mean, it's fine I suppose, I wouldn't have expected it anyway, though it'd be nice.

Mostly I just want to be able to stop crying so damn hard when I see Mothra. I mean Honestly it's so annoying.

And one of the worst parts is talking about it. I feel so damn embarrassed by this whole situation yet I've been forcing myself to mention it and be open about it because it was just tearing me apart MORE before.

*depressed sigh again*

Fuck my life...

My profile pic makes me cry

Fuck everything

I figured maybe getting out of the house would make all of this go away but NOPE! It made it worse.

I was watching YouTube for a while. Trying to distract myself, when suggestions for King of The Monsters showed up, specifically Mothra stuff, and then somehow I ended up watching Trailer reactions to the movie and now I'm in a worse state of mind than earlier and crying.

This thread is getting out of hand. And while it upsets me greatly, I refuse to stop adding to it cause at the moment, with all this Mothra stuff, it is the only thing keeping me sane.

It sucks but yeah, that's the truth. If I don't keep adding to this I don't know what will happen. I mean, I don't understand any of this myself but I sure understand it the most, so I'm pretty much the only one I can talk to about it. With the exception of a specific friend.

I guess the thread is kinda designed as a way to cheer me up, but also a way for me to just in general talk about my love of the Monsterverse. Specifically Mothra but other stuff as well.

It's a thread by me, for me.

Cause I'm the only one who cares.

Anyway, pills are definitely working now. I'm off to bed. It's 2:32 AM after all...

like 2 hours after I fell asleep, I woke up and reached over to take a drink as usual, but out of habit decided it was a good idea to check my phone and BAM! Wide awake.

on top of that I was sweating like crazy.

Thank God I don't wear clothes to bed.

Another day, more crying over Mothra.

It feels impossible to be happy right now. Any happiness I do get comes with extreme sadness and constant crying. I feel like all my emotions have left me and sadness is all that remains.

Why is this movie doing this to me...

And now there's a really strange yet familiar feeling panic attack happening...

Am I seriously, this worthless...

Ignoring the excruciating emotional pain I'm in, maybe it's time to focus on the future of the Monsterverse cause clearly this sadness isn't going away.

I'm not exactly sure who it was that said it, but I recall someone who worked on King of The Monsters saying they would -

like to make a prequel Monsterverse film showing how people dealt with Godzilla in the past, long before technology and whatnot. Which I mean, I'm fine with. I don't really care what kind of movies they make for the Monsterverse as long as I'm getting more and more Kaiju action.

And of course, as always, I hope Mothra is in a lot of them.

You have no idea how happy I am to hear this

My Anxiety is so bad at the moment from even seeing reactions to the movie that I actually feel like I'm going to be sick.

It seems like YouTube is taunting me. It's constantly recommending Mothra stuff to me as well as stuff for GKOTM, despite not watching anything for it on YouTube lately.

And the longer I go without watching the movie again, the worse I feel.

I really want to die right now...

I may actually be losing my sanity over this now.

I'm serious about that by the way.

I've never in my life been THIS obsessed with something. It's almost as if it's an addiction. While not watching the movie I am SEVERELY depressed and when I am watching it I'm crying.

The Monsterverse is about to simultaneously save and ruin my life.

EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF KING OF THE MONSTERS!!!

THE WORLD IS FUCKING WITH ME!!!

I'm not even gonna bother asking for help anymore.

I think I figured out what's been upsetting me so much about this movie.

It's quite simple actually.

I've been abandoned, betrayed, emotionally abused and neglected by many people throughout my life, especially in recent years. And I've come to the point where all I want

anymore is someone who will love me for me, and always be by my side. I just want to be cared for and to be shown that there is hope, that people care about me. That people love me...

And so, seeing Mothra's loyalty to Godzilla, seeing her give her life to save and help him

without a second thought.

That destroyed me.

It sent me into the worst state of mind I'd ever been it. It made me sad to even see her, hear her or her name. Because that kind of loyalty is something I can't have. No one would be willing to care for me that much.

And so I became so upset it was unbearable, and I've been nothing but upset since then.

And now I'm considering ending my life because I'm so scared of everything.

I am scared to death of being alone.

And I'm always alone...

So forgive me, if I'm no fun to talk to.

And just hearing people care isn't enough I'm afraid.

I appreciate it I really do.

But I want someone I can hug when I'm upset. Essentially a shoulder to cry on. Someone who knows my limitations but loves me nonetheless.

I thought I had that before but...

It was all a lie...

A lot has happened and I've been mostly feeling better about all this. Though it's only cause I've found ways tl distract myself.

I've unfortunately decided to avoid the Godzilla King of The Monsters movie altogether.

I watched a clip and started crying again and I really

Don't want to end up back in that state of mind from it again.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love the movie, but what it does to me is too painful and therefore I cannot watch the movie. It's for the best.

Mothra......

It's been a long time, can't say if I'm over it yet but I'm terrified to find out.

There may be a lot of posts on this thread incoming. I'm attempting to watch KOTM again soon and see if I'm over all of this shit.

If I'm not I'll be in a seriously bad mood again.