the worst part of ADHD for me is worrying that everybody thinks i do this shit on purpose

that i choose to be like this

that i just don’t try hard enough

which is infuriating because trying to force myself to ignore my natural tendencies is so exhausting

ADHD means i’m not what society has conditioned me to believe i’m “supposed” to be:

- morning person
- productive
- timely
- responsible
- disciplined
- patient
- even-tempered
- focused
- sit down and shut up and don’t ask questions and just do your work already ughhhh

if it wasn’t for other people’s expectations of me, i wouldn’t feel the need to beat myself up constantly

at the end of the day, if it WAS a choice; i’d still choose to be me

if i took away my ADHD, i’d be a boring, watered-down shell

so i’m weird. immature. loud. messy. scatterbrained

i’m also more fun. empathetic. not afraid to speak my mind. always trying new things. resilient.

the ironic thing is

i keep trying to be all the things i think i’m “supposed” to be

but as someone who loves being unique and standing out...

there’s really nothing i would hate more than being exactly like everybody else

i don’t wanna sit down. i’m not gonna shut up.

i’m different, not broken.

and i’m certainly never boring.