Something I regularly struggle with is “What am I good at?”

...and I can never give myself an answer. I don’t have a “thing” - I don’t have a particular talent nor excel in anything. I can pick most things up well, but nothing that makes people go “Oh Seab, the ______ guy?”

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“The fat/bearded/weird guy” doesn’t count btw. https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😒" title="Unamused face" aria-label="Emoji: Unamused face">

I have *some* passions, but they are things that are expensive so I don’t actually carry them out (https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🙄" title="Face with rolling eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Face with rolling eyes">)

I just find myself kind of ‘existing’ with no real meaning and that’s been happening for a few years now and I’m not getting any younger.

...as evidenced by the increasing amount of greys uncovered by my recent hair / beard cut... https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😨" title="Fearful face" aria-label="Emoji: Fearful face">

I was a top nerd in school, then that kind of died off.

Limbo’d for a bit being a total outcast.

Played guitar for a bit. Played in bands for a bit. Then...

Nothing https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤷🏻‍♂️" title="Man shrugging (light skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Man shrugging (light skin tone)">

Done the family thing https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✅" title="White heavy check mark" aria-label="Emoji: White heavy check mark">
Got myself a decent job I never thought I would https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✅" title="White heavy check mark" aria-label="Emoji: White heavy check mark">

But no particular hobbies - other than travelling. But that’s heavily dictated by finances.

I’ve even gone off casual gaming. I just find I get myself into late night YouTube holes and then go to bed.

It’s like, all I want to do is start back on flying lessons (16+ years on from my last one), get my licence and fly around... and drive loud and expensive cars.

Not asking for too much really... https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="👀" title="Eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Eyes">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💸" title="Money with wings" aria-label="Emoji: Money with wings">

...anyway. Thrones is on in a bit so i’ma shut up.

*Late night Twitter rambles into the void high five* https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✋🏻" title="Raised hand (light skin tone)" aria-label="Emoji: Raised hand (light skin tone)">