We really need to talk about something not Dianna related: Suicide prevention
It's a sensitive subject to deal with and we're try our best to do it. Lot of us deal with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts on a daily base and the first thing you need to know is that you're not alone.
There's a lot of people struggling with the same things you are, maybe not in the same level, maybe not with the same intensity, but they are. Everyone will handle their demons in a way but we're all struggling here.
There's also lot of people willing to help you, to lend you their ears, to listen to all you have to say, even if you think it won't change a thing, try it
You don't have to think about forever today, just think about today, tomorrow you can try again, don't give up
If you're struggling with suicidal thoughts, please consider the following links to help you
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-someone-else/
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-someone-else/safety-and-support-on-social-media/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-someone-else/
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-someone-else/safety-and-support-on-social-media/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
If you know someone who needs help, support them, don't leave them alone, try to seek help together