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guys Merrill Osmond really has been one of the biggest blessings in my life and I really don't think anybody could really understand truly how much he means to me and how much he has helped me through
I don't think I even truly grasp how much he means to me, it's on some other level. I just can't describe it
you might find it annoying etc and that is something that really used to get to me, I was worried about people being annoyed at seeing me essentially tweeting the same thing all of the time
but like, it's how I cope with basically everything. I think everyone has that one person that just brings them peace by looking at a photo or listening to them speak or sing or whatever
Merrill is that person for me. I could he having some massive crisis or panic attack or bad intrusive thoughts etc and watching a video or listening to him sing or talk will just calm me down
I know it sounds insane but it's true
back in November my grandma was admitted to hospital. it was the day before we were going to see the osmonds together. I was in the worst headspace you could ever imagine you have no idea. I went to the concert alone the next day
I was in a total state leading up to it. I went straight from visiting my grandma in the hospital for the first time. I'm not sure if seeing her made me feel worse or not, seeing her with the oxygen tube properly killed me and I was fighting back tears the entire time
I had a meet and greet with Merrill and Jay that day
I go from the hospital, I'm still feeling AWFUL, I felt awful standing outside the venue, I felt awful going into the venue and sitting down - at the front ofc - and then Merrill walks out from the side and as soon as I seen him I felt totally calm
all or my worries left my head. he came right over to me and gave me a hug, as if he knew I needed it. he only gave me a hug and then went and stood on stage
I had a stupid smile on my face the entire time. I actually felt peace for that time. Jay did a song during the sound check and then Merrill walked off the stage and came over to me and patted me on the head and asked me how I'd been
it was so crazy. I genuinely can't explain the feeling of when I first saw him, it was instant peace. like not even exaggerating. I just can't get over it
there's other moments as well but like, that one is the craziest.
he just means a whole bunch to me and I hope everybody has that person who does that for them. it's been a saving grace for me.
