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guys Merrill Osmond really has been one of the biggest blessings in my life and I really don& #39;t think anybody could really understand truly how much he means to me and how much he has helped me through
I don& #39;t think I even truly grasp how much he means to me, it& #39;s on some other level. I just can& #39;t describe it
you might find it annoying etc and that is something that really used to get to me, I was worried about people being annoyed at seeing me essentially tweeting the same thing all of the time
but like, it& #39;s how I cope with basically everything. I think everyone has that one person that just brings them peace by looking at a photo or listening to them speak or sing or whatever
Merrill is that person for me. I could he having some massive crisis or panic attack or bad intrusive thoughts etc and watching a video or listening to him sing or talk will just calm me down
I know it sounds insane but it& #39;s true
back in November my grandma was admitted to hospital. it was the day before we were going to see the osmonds together. I was in the worst headspace you could ever imagine you have no idea. I went to the concert alone the next day
I was in a total state leading up to it. I went straight from visiting my grandma in the hospital for the first time. I& #39;m not sure if seeing her made me feel worse or not, seeing her with the oxygen tube properly killed me and I was fighting back tears the entire time
I had a meet and greet with Merrill and Jay that day
I go from the hospital, I& #39;m still feeling AWFUL, I felt awful standing outside the venue, I felt awful going into the venue and sitting down - at the front ofc - and then Merrill walks out from the side and as soon as I seen him I felt totally calm
all or my worries left my head. he came right over to me and gave me a hug, as if he knew I needed it. he only gave me a hug and then went and stood on stage
I had a stupid smile on my face the entire time. I actually felt peace for that time. Jay did a song during the sound check and then Merrill walked off the stage and came over to me and patted me on the head and asked me how I& #39;d been
it was so crazy. I genuinely can& #39;t explain the feeling of when I first saw him, it was instant peace. like not even exaggerating. I just can& #39;t get over it
there& #39;s other moments as well but like, that one is the craziest.
he just means a whole bunch to me and I hope everybody has that person who does that for them. it& #39;s been a saving grace for me.
