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It has been years since I have seen my favorite episode of The Good Wife, “Death of a Client.” I’m going to rewatch and see what I think if it now.
I’ve often thought of the Television Without Pity review describing how Matthew Ashbaugh truly sees Alicia, red in a monochrome world. I think of it often.
I also think often of him playing the same Bach piece over and over so people will get bored and stop listening. What a curious episode about the power in making yourself unseen and the joy of being seen and loved anyway.
I think this episode hit me hard for that, and for how many times I thought I was seen, only to find out that they were looking at me but only seeing their own reflection.
Also amazing is Mike Kresteva saying that the worst thing about good people is that they think of themselves as good people. I had forgotten that this was all in the same episode.
Truthfully, that’s for whom I keep RTing the format for an effective apology, and the atonement thread. For the people least likely to internalize it, because they don’t think they need it. They’re “good people.”
Oh gods, the one single solitary episode when I liked Peter Florrick, as he calmly punched Mike in the face and framed him for falling off the wagon, that was this one, too. I forgot.
About 90% of my most vivid memories of The Good Wife were from this episode. I wonder if the rest of them are from my second favorite, “The Decision Tree.”
Oh fuck. “Suing because I liked being with you - that wouldn’t make sense.” 
I have to rewatch “The Decision Tree” now, don’t I?
Wait. Is “The Decision Tree” a Xmas episode? How did I not realize/remember this?!
Ohhhh, I forgot about that Irish guy I hated. Ugh.
As an aside, am I the only one who never truly enjoyed this show again after Will died?
Anyway, there’s a reason this is only my second favorite episode. 20 minutes in, and it is only now getting good. Ashbaugh tells them he plays the fox; Will remembers Alicia wearing red.
Will remembers Alicia as wearing red in a monochrome world; Alicia remembers herself as wearing blue. Did Will not truly see her, or was she not seeing herself?
More than being seen or not, though, this reminds me of the American version of Solaris, exploring the vast difference between a person and one’s idea of that person.
Is she the woman who can confidently lie, looking you in the eye, or is she the soft, weak oerson crumbling under questioning? Even Will doesn’t know any more.
All Will knows is that with him, Alicia said she was the happiest she’d ever been.
It’s amazing to me how different both versions of Will’s idea of Alicia are from her. How long after a relationship ends do you still even remember the person accurately enough to still love them? Even if they’re still around?
“Sometimes I think of you as mom, and sometimes you’re just this interesting person who lives in our house.” It’s hard to be seen, really. People see your proximity to them, and little else.
Both of these episodes were as good as I remembered, and yeah, most of my memories of this series are from them, from episodes about ideas/memories vs reality. Not sure what to make of that.
