January. full of tears, drama and sacrifices. nahirapan magpatawad pero kailangan. natuto at tumayo. ohh drama

February. A very tiring month pero masaya. I asked myself over amd over again if I really want to join, but my mom agreed, so yeah! In Tugon, I met new friends, esp my cassc fam yung biruan, tuksuhan, taguan at iyakan. Miting de Avance day, ang qt lang ng sagot ko char.
1/2 feb

Then the election day, as our core slowly announcing the results. Tears were flowing. It was hard and painful but we need to accept it.
From these experiences, I learned a lot. The principles. The battle. The goal. The motivation. The family. Lahat yan babaunin ko.
2/2 feb

March. my birthday month. sinalubong ng bonggang sakit but i recovered. Di rin ako nakapag oath taking as cassc vp and magcelebrate dapat sa bora. Puro nega man ang pa welcome, it ended beautifully, I survived being freshman and I saw darren performing.
"may rason ang lahat."

April. last a.y I deprived myself not eating all I want, doing what I like, buying all my faves etc. kasi busy and focused. I kinda forget to have some fun alone. So I did it (last month). kain dito, kain doon. bili nito, bili niyan. napakagastos, oo. pero napakasarap.

May. I spent half of it with my friends, langoy ganon. other half, lunod na ko sa stress sa council. Di pa start ng klase, napagod agad ako, kaubos pa ng arep at pasensya, but it's fulfilling. kapagod lang maghanap ng sponsors and evrythng. pero sana smooth sailing na sa pasukan

June. wala pa man ding pasok, pero halos na sa school na ko evrydy to prepare. pero ang highlight talaga this month, e yung braces ko. after four long years, wala na silaa , nakakamiss sobra pala, maliliit na bakal lang yun pero kasii.. hayy sentimentalist

July. nangangalahati na at talaga nga namang, watta a roller coaster ride. naramdam ko lahat ng emosyon sa buwan na ito. galit, saya, lab at sadness. ang gara lang, gulong gulo na ko sa buhay. like, i want it noon, pero nung dumating, ang lungkot lang. (nasa diary ibang details).

August. waaaaahhhhh i learned a lot. im trying to fix myself, bringing back the old me, ay mahirap na. I was so happy naman talaga this aug, pero kasi complicated, magulo na masaya basta. hnngg pero si tinkerbell na bahala, diary.

i'll miss this

September. the most stressed and saddest month. stressed ako sa school, dami kong ganap as an officer, i even compromised my studies. tapos yung Odiba was a successful show, never imagined na iiyak ako sa event na to. But im proud that we pulled it off.

then personally, taket puto ko. de, luckily i have mg to cry on. yung mga tanong at ilusyon sa utak ko nawala, but the feelings remain. little by little i'll learn to accept it naman siguro, but not now, i'm enjoying the company e. malapit na ang due date ko, bahala na

October. dramatic ang atake ng buwan na to . Yung hearing sa pinetisyon naming prof, hanggang sa nagantihan ako ng slight sa grading, pero oks naman sa finals. I was so stressed talaga this finals, cram kung cram, puyat kung puyat pero luckily nakapagcomply naman.
1/3

then personally, I had a conversation with one of my bestfriends and wala, puro kabaklaang hanash kadramahan lang naman kung bakit ganito, bakit ganyan hahhaha na napakahirap maging bakla, na bakit kami nasa ganitong sitwasyon, na kaartehan lang talaga pero masakit
2/3

tapos, meeting with cassc about 1st sem, tho strict ang time. at the back of my mind, ang dami pala naming naaccomplish, tho hindi perfect, pero for rookies like us, hindi na masama. aT four months na lang ang nalalabi hayyy. I hope maging ok kami ng lubusan this sem.
3/3

November.

I learned things i really wanted to learn, masaya and masakit. went to baguio to represent the university, tiring yet fulfilling, esp im with my friends and met new people.

lots of break it down yeah and emotionally weakishit

1/2

pero kinaya, as i enjoy my time alone, but not that much like I used before.

ang daming ganap at ang daming pagbabago

tumatanda na nga ata talaga ako

2/2

>> shet patapos na ang taon, show some energy december

>> waaahhhhh parang kailan lang hahhahhaha i'm composing this thread every midnight after the month. ang bilis ng panahonnnn

>> magpapasko na ken. alam kong sabik ka na

>>keeeennnnnn last day naaaaa, u did it

December. i was so stressed, sa mga nangyari. hatest prelim ko ata to, naging pabaya at irresponsible ako sa acads, grabe mga late ko jusko, bawi midterms. on the other hand, mga last two weeks, umokay na siya, dami kong narealize at natutunan na babaunin ko this 2020. thank you

LOOKING BACK: ang problematic ko pala, ng sitwasyon, ng mga kaganapan. but i survived, luckily.

this year, genuine happiness lang hiling ko. hopefully matupad. sana sana po.

one yr in the making ang thread na to, waw at nasustain hahahaha

.This Has Been My 2019.

2 / 0 / 2 / 0

January. ang daming nangyari na pang isang buong taon.

this month. i really really cried a lot. daming breakdowns.

ang hirap maglet go ng mga taong napamahal na sayo.
ang hirap talikuran ng mga bagay na bumuo sayo.
ang hirap magmahal ng hindi ka sigurado.

pero, natuto ako.ty

February. I LOST the elections.

I was sad of course but I never cried, I moved on quickly. Last year pa ako prepared, as I know to myself na tatakbo naman talaga ako.but as the cassc vp, just like what I have said in my speech,

"It is tough and fulfilling"

1/5

This years election is significantly different from last year.

There were issues na HINDI naman dapat ipinupukol sakin, which gave me a bad impression, as i believe na,

"Hindi mali ang lumaban lalo't higit pangarap at edukasyon ang ipinaglalaban mo."

2/5

Hence, I fought fair and square.

Even tho, majority sa slate ko ang natalo, I am still proud of what they have become, grabe. Esp., to bry, diadem, and biax.

and sorry for dragging you into my problems na di dapat kayo masama.

3/5

With my defeat, I know, I disappointed a lot of people.

but I also know that I disappoint you because you believed in me, and thank you for that. I really do appreciate it. salamat talaga.

Sorry po hehe

but I will still make u proud!

4/5

Contentment. Fulfillment. Love. Anxiety. treasured relationships. lahat yan naranasan ko, in my term.

thank you CASSC '19 - '20, love you!

and now

I, John Kenneth P. Ruga, the College of Arts and Sciences Student Council Vice President,

is signing off. See you, CASmates!

5/5

you were brave. you did it.

March. for once, I made something new.

I swallowed my pride, set aside my standards, and conquered my fears for someone that I like.

It's a nice feeling pala. To take the risk. Know the truth. Embrace the pain. And learn from it.

bit regretful but fate na yun eh. Thank you!

April. a deep sigh.
my tito and my cousin were put in jail. ang chaotic ng family, blaming one another.

I always remember how the policemen arrested them, it was so frightening. It made me restless.

very traumatic.

but still, tuloy ang buhay.

May. ang lala mo rin, but I must say, nicer than march and april.

I finished watching some kdramas, reading mangas and rewatching anime I dont like before.

reunited with friends at may pasabog pa, watta good news.

aTT I let people go, sorry, salamat na lang sa lahat.

June. kalimutan ko na hahahaha ganon siya kawalang kwenta furst time ko palang uminom ng real hahahahaha prolly my last. then also the govt sucks.

I pray this ends soon, wala na ako masulat. ingat ka

July. nagpapierce ako hehe. ito lang nangyare amp.

August. start ng online classes. ito lang din plus stress bc of self sdjustment to the new system.

*** I honestly forgot this thread of mine kasi wala ng nangyayare and it's sad, lumipas ang mga buwan na ang daming nasayang na oras na dapat ginugol na lang sa mas makabuluhang mga bagay, pero I cant do more than that, fu kobed ***