I got a crush on my boss and idk wtf to doooooooo

Update: So my boss jokingly asked me to be her valentine.

Guess who accepted? idk what is going on with my life but I’m screwed either way looool. Oh well

On the plus side- guess who’s got a valentine lmfaoooo

Continued update: she said
‘woohoo ’ at my acceptance lol what is happening y’all.

Got invited over & of course it’s the 1 time I can’t fucking go fuck what’re the odds man shit
At this point all I can hope for is that Whatsapp doesn’t notify people when their conversations get screenshot coz I’ve been taking hella screenshots

She asked me out to an event and this time I actually could so that was fun. She was wearing heels and boyyyy when I tell you those were a pair of fuck me stilettos at first I thought ‘this is interesting’ coz she was taller but I’d be damned if I didn’t say it was hot too

I didn’t know how nice shoes could make a person look and of course that same night I didn’t even give her a compliment about it coz I was too preoccupied in not being an embarrassment

She invitd me 2 come by if I am bored coz I wasn’t on call. I said if I can find a ride, I will.

So I show up & we chill. I barely help out & she apparently brought food to share w/ me?

When I get home she sends a text-

“PS I'm glad you came today, you make the day better ”

I am like 99% sure she’s straight but that 1% of hope got me sooo fucked up. How do you *subtly* ask if someone’s bi/gay? Lool I brought up Fantastic Beasts (spoiler alert) Dumbledore and Grindelwald’s relationship & she responded w/ a joke? like no ma’am i need confirmation

Guess who’s going to dinner and a movie w/ their crush/boss? pray for me y’all I need every chance I can get coz this woman is phenomenal & I need some sort of sign she likes me back coz while I am bold in some ways, I need some sort of reciprocity 2 know how to move about it

Update nearly a year later:
I accepted that she’s by default straight coz I couldn’t function around her and it was getting ridiculous. It’s my cope.
We can both agree that Katie McGrath/Lena Luthor is cute af tho so am I really suffering? At least she’s got taste

I think I’ve got a serious thing for smart, successful and kind women and I really need to chill. That adequacy, plus being a kind person is exactly how to get my gears in a twist and me to fall head over heels for ya if you ever needed a recipe for disaster

sigh, it’s been a while since I updated but she’s definitely straight and it’s so disappointing lol. Like she will check out women and compliment women sexually but is simply, straight.

This has been a terrible experience coz just when I think I can distance myself and get over her, I can’t it’s like every time I make the plan to get some distance, she will KNOW. next thing I know I’m getting texts and pics and she’s checking in on me...

Maybe I’m a sucker but maybe it’s also the fact that I fall for unavailable people lol. Like here I am praying no one else has seen me absolutely pining over this woman, and slowly accepting that she is spectacular on multiple levels yet I know she’s straight.

A part of me wants to disappear off of the face of the earth because I probably have made a proper fool of myself a ton of times and I think she just assumes that’s my personality versus that’s how I feel around her. It’s this torn feeling of knowing you can’t influence them...

at the time wishing you could. Lately my dreams have been splurging on that fantasy and being vulnerable with her is SoOooo not helping. Waking up drenched in sweat just to realize it’s not real is not fun.

So now I feel like the title of this thread should be:

Help! I fell in love with my boss / coworker and I don’t know what to do!