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It’s lorde’s birthday and i will never be able to truly thank her for everything her music did for me growing up. Both her albums came out at such pivotal times in my life where I was so incredibly depressed and my mental health was at its worst.
Pure heroine came out in 2013 when I was only 15 years old and I made a promise to myself that I didn’t wanna make it to 16. Something about her music resonated so much with me because we were so close in age, I truly like grew up with her music and with her.
Between 2013-2017 when melodrama came out, I never stopped listening to that one album, there’s not one song that I’m tired of hearing or ever skip. Her songs are truly like soundtracks to my life.
Melodrama came out in June 2017,a few days after my 19th birthday. My mental health was again at its worst.I was madly in love with someone who completely broke my heart and crushed me.And this album came out and it was all about heartbreak and learning to be your own best friend
I had just left the country for two months to get away from everything at home and to be by myself and focus on myself and I listened to this album on repeat for the whole time.I will never forget once I finally felt the lyrics ‘I care for myself the way I used to care about you’
This album honestly made me realise that I needed to put myself first because I’d spent the last year putting all my energy into someone else’s happiness and in the end it had made me miserable .
October 1st 2017, I finally saw her live. I was front row and it was possibly one of the best days of my life. I have never cried to much at a show before out of pure happiness. She kept speaking about how some of her fans who are her age, we have all grown up together
The show was just so fucking special to me and something I will NEVER forget. She came down whilst singing Team, grabbed by face while I was looking up at her and just said ‘your big eyes’ to me and I don’t even know how to explain how much it meant to me
And she continued to laugh at me crying throughout the entire show and actually had to stop the show and say ‘every time I’ve looked at you throughout the show you’ve been crying’ she means so fucking much to me. And I know I like never tweet about her
But I feel like her music will always hold such a special place in my heart forever. I adore her so much, this has been my Lorde appreciation post.
Also literally none of this is cohesive or makes sense but it’s nearly 6am and I haven’t slept so FILL UR BOOTS
