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Now time for my one of my after midnight depressing ish threads
I was always that one person that really admired the bound between best friends and always wanted a best friend u know the ride and die kinda person
Like u know reliable, if u going i going, if someone insult u we fighting, planned outing without worrying about stone, same interest like carnival and going on nature adventures u know always there.
Everytime i tried to fill the spot in the past the person/ persons either already had a friend like that or they just wasn& #39;t as close to me like i felt i was to them or they change, get a boy friend and forget u exist or we just grow distant.
The at some point I accepted the fact that nobody will ever be a friend like that to me. Im find with that tho
Since im a really friendly I have ALOT of really really good friends i wont lie and i love them so much.
I try to be the type of friend to them that i wanted for myself especially when it comes to outing. Recently i stopped the outing thing tho cause the same enery i was putting in wasn& #39;t being put in for me.
Once people said lets go in the past I& #39;d always be there sometimes i would be literally broke and have to go in saving to go but that was nothing on me cause thats what friends do. Stopped that shit last year and have no regrets
Only a select few ppl if they say go i going cause i know once i wanna go somewhere they must go with me (chelsey is one 
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Im not the perfect friend tho. Im just the friend that will always incourage and be supportive and always try to be cheerful and lighten up peoples spirits. But When it comes to people problems and personal business i tend to want nothing to do with that.
I dont like getting involved in people business cause i don& #39;t feel i have the right too and my advice tends to be very harsh and straight to the point
Guess im just useless in that regard
But anyways like i said before im not mad with how things are now, things are just perfect actually. I have lots of friends so if i need favours or good company if need to check out whose willing and thats fine
Because im like this u tend to see me around with many people like i dont belong to a squadhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤣" title="Lachend auf dem Boden rollen" aria-label="Emoji: Lachend auf dem Boden rollen">. sometimes u would see me with my choc friends, salcc friends, GC friends(tuna boom), chelsey, crinela, my sis and her friends my co workers my flower shack friends, twitter fam
Still don& #39;t mind having more friends tho especially those with my interest the lord might bless me with spme one day lolol
Fun fact im actually shy when meeting people cause in my mind everyone hates me and im annoying so new people gonna hate me too. This actually the reason i haven& #39;t gone to twitter limes and stuffhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß">.
But anyways enough of this pointless thread im suppose to be asleep already since i have to wake up for pinehill at 5amhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß" aria-label="Emoji: Lächelndes Gesicht mit offenem Mund und Angstschweiß">
Bernelle and her thoughts out
Back here almost 2 years after doing this thread, it is currently 2:51am
