today fucked with me. lots of good things happened, but i did not have a good day*. in the morning i& #39;m taking the day off after i get these notes typed up. and i& #39;m also going to eat ice cream

*(this is not abt my friends i saw in the afternoon, i liked that part of today v much)

i do not like hurting people even when i& #39;m making the right choice to take care of myself and my own mental health

i know i& #39;m doing the right thing but i& #39;m still hurting people and i hate that

also i feel really sad when i stand up for ppl but when i need support it feels like they just leave me behind. idk why they do that? maybe it& #39;s because, to protect myself and be less vulnerable, i project this image that i don& #39;t need help & that i& #39;m a strong and confident person

but sometimes i& #39;m not & i wish the ppl that i stand up for would stand up for me too

maybe i just need to stop going out of my way to build ppl up who apparently either see me as a threat or just don& #39;t give a fuck about me

also idk bc of recent events i feel compelled to say that this thread is abt my personal life unrelated to the Black Lives Matter movement and it& #39;s my timeline and it helps me to vent on here

i"ll probably delete this later tho im tired as fuck and this thread is petty as fuck and i& #39;m just gonna go ahead and lower my expectations for ppl from now on https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="✌🏼" title="Siegeshand (mittelheller Hautton)" aria-label="Emoji: Siegeshand (mittelheller Hautton)">