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Okay Twitter, here& #39;s what& #39;s been going on with me: a thread. I will start with some back ground info, so hang tight. 1/13
My entire post-pubescent life I was overweight or obese. My heaviest was 270lbs, but I spent most of that time fluctuating between 215lbs and 245lbs. I was a binge eater, at 23 I was diagnosed with #bulimia. I would try to loose weight, it would always come roaring back. 2/13
In July of 2018 my husband and I went to NOLA and I weighed 240lbs. It was hot, I was miserable, I could barely keep up with him. I had been dealing widespread pain, GERD, severe headaches, etc. All health problems caused by my obesity. 3/13
When we returned home I decided enough was enough and drastically changed my diet and began regular exercise. Working against my #eatingdisorder was hard and I& #39;m still working everyday. I lost over 100lbs, hitting a normal BMI in August 2019 & goal weight of 130 by October. 4/13
I have *essentially* maintained that weight for 6 months. Of course, I& #39;ve had fluctuations, but since October, I have remained under 140, mostly under 135 except during my time of the month (totally normal). So, I should be really proud of myself and I am!!! 5/13
When I was working, I was extremely active both at work and outside of work, walking everywhere and burning tons of calories, which allowed me to eat a fair amount without gaining any weight. 6/13
Since I& #39;ve been #StayingAtHome, of course my activity has decreased substantially, by about 1000 calories. I& #39;ve also been heavily tested by the ghosts of my eating disorder. I had gotten used to being able to eat a lot, and now suddenly, if I don& #39;t want weight gain, I can& #39;t. 7/13
I think I& #39;ve adjusted *fairly* well, I& #39;m back on a regular #IntermittentFasting schedule and that helps. I haven& #39;t gained any weight. Great, right? Okay, we are finally getting to the thick of this thread... 8/13
Why in the ever loving heck do I even care about weight gain right now???? I& #39;m very healthy, I don& #39;t consume sugar or refined carbs literally ever, I eat lots of protien and fiber regardless of my calorie intake and NO ONE EVER SEES ME! 9/13
My husband doesn& #39;t care, why should I? As long as the foods I eat are healthy and my body feels good, it shouldn& #39;t matter. The way my body *looks* at a low weight should be irrelevant because 1. I& #39;m married, and 2. NO ONE EVER SEES ME. 10/13
I feel guilty worrying about this and I wonder if I& #39;m making myself feel worse by continuing to follow the rules I set for myself during my "regular" high activity life before #SocialDistancing. It doesn& #39;t matter! There are MUCH bigger fish to fry, right now. 11/13
Okay, so for those of you who bothered to even read this whole damn thing, let me ask you: am I silly for continuing to be concerned with specific numbers right now? As long as the individual foods I eat are health, I should be okay in the end, right? 12/13
